Ok. I have had it with demons.
But my house is a mess.
I am not lazy. I just like to know what to do.
I am new to this but like to learn.
So if everybody has an idea I hope you like to share it with me.
So I explain a bit.
In the firsts place, my eyes are not good.
So that is a problem with cleaning.
Sound strange but it is. Because you see nothing your mind can not think do this or that.
I like to seek ballance in my self. But I do not know how or where to start.
So my house is a bit of a mess. Nothing has it's own place.
I think it is possible but I can not even make a start doing it.
I know possitive vibrations are healthy. Yet I deal with some heavy disopointments and that works self destructive.
Yet I need to find a way to get over it.
I had hopes of perfectness as a child.
Everything is holy and must be holied is my formula.
Yet I am not really born in a blessed family I think. There is always dispair and negative vibes were always there with lots of fights.
You sow on old photos orbs. But they do secretive about it and I do not know why. But I feel they hide something or do not tell me.
So I like to have a family you can trust and I am idealistic but circumstances are not if your mother say that my soul made a mistake by being born in that family you some how crash.
Because the negative attack is non stop and I get tired. I know they fight me in my family since someone told me evenso. They like to battle me as with power who is the strongest. I do not such battle but someone chose me to battle me and it saddened me because how can a family member do that to a family member. I learned a lot. I became interested in Christianity and listened to youtube and was surprised what I learned. My family never told me these things.
Then in the bible I read opposit from what they always had told me.
But my disopointment that they destroy me can not help me. Should I get over it.
Can you get over it. They have fun if I suffer because for them it means they are stronger then me.
But I get tired because it is a life time long and your own family.
I feel not a loser because of that ofcourse.
Telepathic my father as when I was young what I choose.
It was Christmas.
So I stood before a christmas tree.
So telepathic I said I choose Jesus Christ.
For me the symbol of holyness and so I meant it.
So I became a victim because of that.
They all turned against me.
But is there a thing I can do about it.
Or what must I do or can I do.
I hope someone has an answer.
But my house is a mess.
I am not lazy. I just like to know what to do.
I am new to this but like to learn.
So if everybody has an idea I hope you like to share it with me.
So I explain a bit.
In the firsts place, my eyes are not good.
So that is a problem with cleaning.
Sound strange but it is. Because you see nothing your mind can not think do this or that.
I like to seek ballance in my self. But I do not know how or where to start.
So my house is a bit of a mess. Nothing has it's own place.
I think it is possible but I can not even make a start doing it.
I know possitive vibrations are healthy. Yet I deal with some heavy disopointments and that works self destructive.
Yet I need to find a way to get over it.
I had hopes of perfectness as a child.
Everything is holy and must be holied is my formula.
Yet I am not really born in a blessed family I think. There is always dispair and negative vibes were always there with lots of fights.
You sow on old photos orbs. But they do secretive about it and I do not know why. But I feel they hide something or do not tell me.
So I like to have a family you can trust and I am idealistic but circumstances are not if your mother say that my soul made a mistake by being born in that family you some how crash.
Because the negative attack is non stop and I get tired. I know they fight me in my family since someone told me evenso. They like to battle me as with power who is the strongest. I do not such battle but someone chose me to battle me and it saddened me because how can a family member do that to a family member. I learned a lot. I became interested in Christianity and listened to youtube and was surprised what I learned. My family never told me these things.
Then in the bible I read opposit from what they always had told me.
But my disopointment that they destroy me can not help me. Should I get over it.
Can you get over it. They have fun if I suffer because for them it means they are stronger then me.
But I get tired because it is a life time long and your own family.
I feel not a loser because of that ofcourse.
Telepathic my father as when I was young what I choose.
It was Christmas.
So I stood before a christmas tree.
So telepathic I said I choose Jesus Christ.
For me the symbol of holyness and so I meant it.
So I became a victim because of that.
They all turned against me.
But is there a thing I can do about it.
Or what must I do or can I do.
I hope someone has an answer.
