Consequences you didn't count on

[thehornedone]

It was fun being a neophyte. Just that tiny dose of power we all get once our first simple spells work can quickly turn into an egotistical drunkeness. Then, inevitably reality settles and the consequences emerge. That is not to say we were wrong when we were young. What is my point? I am alone. I have hailed the adversary. I have asked for power and control and to some degree gained it. Now the people who inspired the love, which lead to the need for power so to protect seem like simpletons to me. I do my best to let them have free will but at times i turn them into finger puppets for my own validation which i excuse as protection, all the while telling myself that its for their own good, when I am quite possibly robbing them of their own lessons to learn.

Im not trying to emo shit post. Its just that I now comprehend the spirit that I literally asked to integrate. The scapegoat. The clever one. The bastard. I thought this would be somehow gratifying. Sometimes it sort of is, most of the time I am revisiting this fresh lesson;
Doing the right thing has no reward.
Power implicates responsibility.
I am alone.
....I am drunk listening to Paganini.

What did you not realize would happen after you dared to demand power?

 

[stalkinghyena]

What did you not realize would happen after you dared to demand power?

1. I got the power and it raped me in the wazoo. Being in charge made me responsible for those below and the one's above me were ready to demonstrate that "shit rolls down hill". Plus, whenever one gets power, it will be challenged continually, otherwise it is useless.

2. I learned I could, by imposition of my magical persona, charm women into lustful submission until I realized that after consummation I was, in fact, their property.
The result of which being that I lost my property.

3. I discovered that I could hypnotize while I speak, but that no one was understanding what the hell I was talking about, only that I was talking. If I had a flute and some rats to follow me, I am sure I would have a career worth mythologizing about by those who do not listen.
Long after I am dead.
In an age so distant that future people will write historical essays on how we worshipped Mickey Mouse and L Ron Hubbard died for our sins.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Cause and effect. It's what it's all about.
Perhaps view it from a Calvinist stance, where we are pre destined, or reincarnation can also be possible.
Otherwise, we the LHP or MHP are screwed. Patrons patrons....

When I was on another forum from long ago, and was under tutelage of a Dark Arts Adept (Magus?), I summoned someone I hadn't counted on.
Then I saw a post "..you didn't mean to summon one, but you did...". 100.
I was about to foolishly petition forty goets for prideful egotistical crap.
Love brothers and sisters, Philio and Agape. Love.

Another consequence .. what about the eternal tax collector? What do we do when he comes knocking on the door?
Something to think about.

Finally, take heart .. grace is available.
The local Freemasons had a weekly quote before this time - Faith, Hope, Love. Or Hope, Faith, Love.

Now, I see personal notes in here, so thank you - I know I need to forgive and atone. The first three steps, confession first. Then finally praise.

 

[killing raven sun]

be careful what you ask for, you will attract anything you want, this is why it is fucking mandatory to have cult like mind control, if you want power dont get burned, if you want pussy dont get screwed, make sure you know where you are going in life, uncertainty is its own reward

and stop being so emotional about it, almost everyone is doing almost everything wrong almost all the time, the lesson they learn is whatever you fucking teach them

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

What's everyone's opinion on the OP, vs the idea (Dr Fludd?) came up with where the Goetia and shem are parts of our inherent mind, brain (Aries) and CNS Leo?)?