I guess that most people expect a moment or "the moment" A breakthrough, a vision, something unmistakable.
In reality, the first “touch” is often much quieter, and much less theatrical. It usually comes after a period of sustained practice. Pumping expectations is also something that could poison the practice it self.
In my case, it didn’t come from doing something extraordinary. It came from doing something consistently: showing up, maintaining discipline, and learning to stay with the practice without chasing results, just taking notes of what has been done. The "touch" wasn’t an intrusion from elsewhere. It was a different level of awareness of something that had always been there, but that I didn’t have the structure and knowledge to perceive before.
