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Hello from beautiful Middle-earth again,
today I torment myself over spending 50 bucks or not,
since I would have to choose between two things that seem dear to my perceived well being.
Today is carnival in my country, and while I'm not into joining the street madness
there is this gothic-ish party that starts mid day to be more friendly on the sleep schedule
that truly has some potential as the carnival will attract more dungeon dwellers there than the
small and reserved gen x crowd one could usually expect there, so more of a potential of
the ideal 2000s vampire party vibes maybe even.
Aaaaand I'm in a great mood, the planets even fit today and on top of that I was going mad from loneliness
for a while now. Still - drinking, wasting time and energy, not buying that talisman I planned to get just
to endlessly drive around with public transport on a very crowded day full of drunks to go on a party is
by now really not me and so my restricting saturnesque thoughts remind me of getting my shit together
and not waste time with mundane pleb activities.
I know, lol, what can anyone say about this, we all have free will,
so decisions decisions.
Still this reminds me of the part of my mind that is very well aware that limiting myself too much is also not going to help anyone.
What do you think about these scenarios and can you relate?
I think the secret to abundance is trust, so I will trust the plan, trust that money isn't an issue and trust that it'll do me good to don't care for once.
Sun & moon in Aquarius people (what does that even mean lol)
today I torment myself over spending 50 bucks or not,
since I would have to choose between two things that seem dear to my perceived well being.
Today is carnival in my country, and while I'm not into joining the street madness
there is this gothic-ish party that starts mid day to be more friendly on the sleep schedule
that truly has some potential as the carnival will attract more dungeon dwellers there than the
small and reserved gen x crowd one could usually expect there, so more of a potential of
the ideal 2000s vampire party vibes maybe even.
Aaaaand I'm in a great mood, the planets even fit today and on top of that I was going mad from loneliness
for a while now. Still - drinking, wasting time and energy, not buying that talisman I planned to get just
to endlessly drive around with public transport on a very crowded day full of drunks to go on a party is
by now really not me and so my restricting saturnesque thoughts remind me of getting my shit together
and not waste time with mundane pleb activities.
I know, lol, what can anyone say about this, we all have free will,
so decisions decisions.
Still this reminds me of the part of my mind that is very well aware that limiting myself too much is also not going to help anyone.
What do you think about these scenarios and can you relate?
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I think the secret to abundance is trust, so I will trust the plan, trust that money isn't an issue and trust that it'll do me good to don't care for once.
Sun & moon in Aquarius people (what does that even mean lol)
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