You will continue to “discover things”, break through membranes, write new layers over your palimpsest, spiral up, level up, pop bubbles, pop bottles, whatever you call it, until you cool down and accept a system that is self-containing, like the qabalah, or Gurdjieff‘s Fourth Way.
My own Druidic view is to be kind to our innocent past selves and accept all those stages of advanced understanding, like the rings of a tree: ring after ring we grow taller and stronger, bending in the wind… don’t focus on that last layer, but rather look at the whole.