Understand, and thinking back if I was that determined or not, but there were ties at first, for example, problems with a bully or two in school, given basics of boxing with my dad as a kid, but permitted in dealing alone with problem people of a violent nature, and have this taken martial arts at various times, or generally try to be aware quick and determined to get home. Only a few times recently on this have I felt or thought extreme danger and hightailed it home immediately. In Ninjutsu/To Shin Do training between 2007-2011, I obtained entry into the third element (Fire, with only Fire and Wind to go before reaching void, and my black belt hung on the wall), and have considered Buy Thai and BJJ since 60% of fights end up on the ground, as I found out harshly a year ago when jacked from behind one night by a guy passing me that I tried to get his attention to ask him if he'd encountered a stray phone somewhere.
Anyway, trying to correlate to the 6.5 sub scale point, and raise to at least a 6.2 level, and then try 5.2 and 4.2 using HF. on 4.7, I know I have empathic qualities that were dimmed out like losing the lamp oil in the NT scriptures. Trying to get that back as well as sensitivity to others and their needs, this may force me out of the first rung on Maslows Hierarchy of Needs, where I struggle with the first rung.
