Me And Satan

[albie]

You may see this as a work of fiction, an error. Or maybe it is the product of a maniac. Even you, who have used magic to manipulate reality, may find this account unbelievable. So be it. Your world.

Protect it how you see fit.

He's been at it again. His antics on the news for all to see, yet not see. He never rests it seems. He has been given the date of his end however. 2042.

Satan. The Devil. Old Hob. Grand and ridiculous terms that probably belong on a Christian appreciation forum.

Is he real? The universe popped into existence from nothing, so who is to categorically deny anything as odd as him to exist?

All I know is my daily research; the books I read, the websites I frequent, the films I watch...all have been used as clues to his tragedies. It's complicated but maybe I can elucidate what happens. I will read a book, a comic related to magical/spiritual theories I have, looking for symbolism that matches my prior investigations. Then he, or something, will boost an image, a relevant number, a name from that information - usually more than one of these -and it will figure overtly in a subsequent major incident on the news.

The magical intention to do this is not there in me. Yet it happens. So where is it coming from?

Some have said this is my shadow self at work. Maybe. Who knows. If so then the id is more fantastic than even Freud imagined...because this Mr Hyde is not hidden from me. He communicates with me mentally and out loud. He is able to speak and even act through my body. Other people have seen him. Children can see him. He can get inside other people and make them communicate with me. He also uses this ability to cause harm.

So what is he like?

Happy. Things are going well for him. He finds me funny. My mundanity is hilarious to him. My sorrow at the harm he causes he tolerates. He cannot understand these feelings. All is a game to him. He is not harming vulnerable people, he is playing with Gods who have lost their memories. Us. "Where is the harm? You chose to come down here knowing I'm here." His words.

When I see someone in a wheelchair or someone equally unfortunate and feel sorry for them..."They chose that. Why should I care? They are learning from their experience and if I should cause them even more pain? More lessons to enhance their journey upwards."

His favourite saying is "Kill them all, I say." Issued randomly through the day. He got the saying from Dave Grohl, who says it on a Nirvana DVD we have. He often speaks in catchphrases from TV and films.

He likes music- a particular type of music. He uses it to feel emotions of victory for his crimes and hatred for God "That light bulb."

I keep a journal of his harm. I'm adding entries every day now. Several a day, sometimes.

The closer I get to understanding the mystery of reality and magic the more powerful he becomes. "That's fair," he just said. Yes, he's watching me write this and assisting with spelling and things like that.(He doesn't like that sentence. Too vague)

He will read this journal I keep, listen to emotive music, and enjoy his works. His favourite tune right now is BYE BYE BADMAN by THE STONE ROSES. Ironic, really. Without the music he feels nothing. Except for a general darkness- impatience with people who walk too slowly, blocking the pavement- people who walk around the streets with a can of beer in their hand. "GET A ROOM! It's not even NOON!"

He fears people as well as hates them. Beggars he cannot stand. He loves money and will not part with it easily.

He doesn't like it when I talk to people. It sends him crazy. "Kill him, Rob! HAHAHAHAHAH!" He's always laughing.

I had a good friend years ago, and this person complained to me that I kept attacking him. I had no awareness of these attacks. This was before my internal friend had entered centre stage. He didn't like my mate. "He thinks he's in charge of you, Rob." Perhaps he's right.

He doesn't like the word 'oranges' for some reason. But he demands I buy them every day. He calls them 'onions.' He calls mice 'spiders'. Or is it the other way round? "Is it round or AROUND, Rob?"

He tells me he loves me then later he will attack me. He is either changeable or there are others with him. There is evidence of that. Sometimes they converse with each other and I observe.

"I exist. I am acting in the world and nobody sees me! What's the point?" That annoys him. He sees himself as a miracle of nature and should be famous by now. He wants to be a writer. Some guy I used to know wanted to publish some of my-our- stories. I decided against that and when I emailed him to turn his offer down I felt something odd. I felt a heart break. His heart. It was quite pleasurable I must say. I would like to feel that again.

We fell out a few years ago. He had been causing things to happen to people by suggesting them to me first. A young girl was killed by dogs in this instance. He triggered this by describing what it would be like if my father were to be killed by a pack of dogs. "HAHAHAHAH!" He went into great detail. He seems to have many techniques for shaping reality. "You bet."

Then he went onto suggest something even worse and I'd had enough. I began to attack him. How, I'm not sure. Mentally, spiritually. It went on for days. At one point he said to me, through my mouth, in a weak frightened voice, "You're hurting me, Robert." And I was. And I enjoyed it."Two ANDS in a row, Rob? Clumsy."

Then he tried to kill me a few times. He would wait for me to be standing on the curb, preparing to cross the road, and then he would cloud my mind. Then he would shout "Now!" and I would go to cross the road. A car would then speed past inches away.

At one point he complained of the situation "Now the plan won't work!"

What plan? I don't know, but he seems to need me for it to happen. He was forced to make up with me. He didn't stop his antics however, he just involved me less. "We've been doing this for thousands of years, Rob."

I have some clue as to what is going on. Someone is feeding me hints. The energy of the world was turned down some years ago. Long ago. And now it is being turned back up. "HAHAHHAHAHAH!"

He has been waiting for this for a long time and it is close to happening. Then he will be even more powerful.

Lisbon. Minneapolis. Manitoba. Niagara. "Small fry."

Last week I decided to see if I could email David Icke about all this. That day a helicopter crashed on the Isle Of Wight, killing three people. David Icke lives on the Isle Of Wight. "HAHAHAHAHAH! Don't mess with me. I might be jolly but I aint no clown."

No. I'm the clown. "Surely there's an apostrophe in AINT! Right, readers? HAH!"

He's basically a serial killer with a plan. He wants to kill God. "No, Rob. Just sending him a message." I've had dreams that suggest that the devil was 'disabled' by God. God had made him too smart. "Too BIG, Rob. Too BIG." And out of fear God did something. In the dream God pushed the devil into what looked like a TV screen full of swirling colours. "Chaos.HAHAHAHAH! I soon figured that out, though. Quite useful."

Maybe he doesn't exist. Maybe he is just a part of my mind gone crazy. But the magic is real. The deaths ARE happening. If the devil doesn't exist then that means I am responsible for these events.

Which means I'm the devil.

"Chump."

 

[silencewaits]

Maybe he doesn't exist. Maybe he is just a part of my mind gone crazy. But the magic is real. The deaths ARE happening. If the devil doesn't exist then that means I am responsible for these events.

Which means I'm the devil.

Good news! The devil is not inside you. Bad news? You have to figure out why you are experiencing this. And if the answer is something you don't like, even something mundane--would you be satisfied? I think the "shadow self" suggestion is not a bad place to start, you already have a journal with these experiences listed.

I am interested in the magical bit. So far it seems less causative, and more predictive (if not simply coincidental). Could you share more?

 

[Loam]

It definitely exists. And we see it.
I like how it was put in an old Northern Exposure episode when Ed was asked if he believed in the devil. His answer was “you cant have a tug of war without someone on the other end”.

 

[Umi0]

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Alright, so here, for you. A little big puzzle. As for the devil... well, things are more complicated than that, yet quite simple.

As for the stars, they are connected, I was too lazy to draw lines around them all though, would mess it all up...

In 3 days, I will post some explanations for all the simbols out there, the triangle, inverted triangle, star of david, hexagon and so on.

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Let's just say... the devil is like a child that wants infinity, love, to be seen, to play forever, have his head in the sound. Well, to his dismay, he is, as you have put it, way... way too smart. Imagine this, to have this instinct of what will happen. To know love awaits betrayal and betrayal love.

There is a constant theme I found with the devil, always. He gets it all and immediately right after loses it and is betrayed or feels betrayed... which is really an inevitability, he knows it too... by, his own father-self. Soon in 3 days, he resumes playing the same game. To and from the earth, up and down on it. He rises up, shoots up all that light, 'destroys' heaven, goes back and gives it all to his child. which... low and behold awaits the same fate. in a quite crude circle.

Devil ain't seen by others, but he wants to, at the same time, he doesn't as he is afraid of getting punsihed, so he hides even better, splits up, goes 'inside' all of us.

He feels rejected, at the same time rejects, then says, I was not of this world since it rejected me and am not of it. Basically an eternal wandered seeking something he knows he can't have, because he is too smart and knows how it all works, or at least... is getting there. When he finds out, he loses it and goes back to the same old same old.

He has no idea, the so called light bulb throwed him into the tv screen to take his eyes away, his mind away from that truth, the rock that was rejected and became the cornerstone for anyone who falls on it shatters into pieces and on everyone it falls, it is squashed. Well... he finds it out eventually anyway, this eternal 3 way tug of war.

For the sigil above shows the end of it, which is also the beginning. The 2 opposites collide in on each other in the middle and one is exalted, the other, humbled. I'll let you find out how that goes.

Sad, though, the heart in the middle, the star of david, whishes for both sides to reconcile and be happy together... another, quite impossible dream, for when they stop bickering and get in on close, it pushes them away to bicker once more like a heart pulsating blood, like the coming seasons, still, this helps them both.

One, wishes for infinity, knows the wound bleeding gives the life, the 2 contradicts eternally to please the other 2 and 3 stays there, knows the truth, the finity, but somewhere deep within places all his hopes on 2 and 1.

 

[HoldAll]

One, wishes for infinity, knows the wound bleeding gives the life, the 2 contradicts eternally to please the other 2 and 3 stays there, knows the truth, the finity, but somewhere deep within places all his hopes on 2 and 1.

You know, there's also the option of opening a Journal here on WF if you want to share your ongoing experiences or thoughts.

 

[Umi0]

Round or around... huh, the onion of life. Well, I see my time is short too and one day I will find out all of it, will I rejoice or will I shatter into a 1000 pieces once more... only time will tell, but the seasons never lie. But somewhere deep within, I too have hope that maybe one day we will overcome this all and have all and one be satisfied properly as the red green and blue unite, not to become one dull lonely white that rejects itself, shatters into pieces and becomes the stars, but a swirling of colors that never go away.

You too, seem very consumed by this contradiction. I suggest taking it easy from magic for a while, grounding yourself in more... mundange matters, maybe eat a bit less, as well, lose some kilos, give your heart some rest, for a while. Take some time off of reading things, anything that causes contradiction... which let's be honest, there's plenty out there in the current world, you need some rest from it, my advice, take it or leave it, up to you.

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You know, there's also the option of opening a Journal here on WF if you want to share your ongoing experiences or thoughts.

Oh, I know what you say. I am quite afraid of it really, I always end up deleting it all when the going gets tough, the same old pattern. As to why I am doing this, it all comes down to whether I believe my experience helps that particular person or not.

If I put it out there for all to see and promote it, it will just create more division and to some, it will really really cause harm to.