Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[DiLoco_DelEted]

About to shower and dress and get downtown an hour early to scope out the energy for the morning.

But speaking of tarot,

Card of the Day: VIII Strength. Leo (Sol currently in Leo). Teth. Serpent. 9.

 

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A meditation on the Red Lion and the White Queen (Strength card) backed by infinity -

Ps 33:9
"For he spoke, and it was done; he commanded, and it stood fast."

 

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Working on magical goals.

One is already crystal clear in my mind. And surely based on working through the book.

The other I forget ATM.

Reading Ps 119 Teth

 

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Listening to Pearl Jam's "Even Flow", it was a stark warning to me of how close I was or am to being portrayed as that songs character. Already it was begun, to the point last year of being without kind words swung my way, to hurling myself off the top of a parking structure.
My thought ...
'Those elitist bastards running the world don't care about all those supporting and holding them up from the bottom. Perhaps we should abandon our posts, and let them fall, a self collapsing layer cake."

 

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Or ... Perhaps try to defeat this attitude, that these leaders of tomorrow will help us all. And that the current leaders will have compassion to others, not just lip service.
Yeah, I don't believe it either.

 

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My mind after realizing the even flow fact centered my thoughts back to suicides I've seen and had to clean up, those I don't know that come and go in the paper. Why life is made so damn hard for some because some aholes can't break their past profit margin.
This society is close to collapse.

 

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Or perhaps not.

While wandering and raving, I calmed myself with a smoke.

A few minutes later a young guy walks by and compliments me on my shoes.
H: (Walking by) "I like your shoes."
M: "Thanks .. hey if you're interested .."
H: (He stops and turns)
M: "I got them at meijers, and not too expensive, maybe 70 bucks tops."
H: "I've been off my meds. It's not good for your health."
M: "No its not, ive been there myself."
H: "Yeah it makes you numb." (Starts to walk away)
M: "You matter."
He stops and stares at me.
M: "You do."
H "thanks" ... Walks away.

Yep. Distemper not a good thing. Perhaps rave about what's right in the world.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Survived first day of work and back home.

Another Teth or 9th passage - Psalms 38
"Lord, all my desire is before thee; and my groaning is not hid from thee."
Seems to better compare the verse to the symbolism in the Strength card.

Not entirely satisfied with the order of my room:
Clothes need rewashing and drying .. tomorrow however.
The paper stacks need some going through.
Giveaway clothes need wash and dry.
Winter clothes need wash and hang dry.
Comforter and electric throwover need a wash and dry.
A shelving unit is a necessity for the mineral kingdom.
Giveaway books need to be carted downstairs.
Electric work orders need to be put in.
A general cleaning and vacuuming.
Past that, I can reorganize, and the goal of an orderly dwelling is completed.

Adorations and Neophyte Formula done shortly.
Need to be on a consistent schedule. With daily meditation adorations, ritual work.

 

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Adorations:
E Lord of the Universe, Neophyte signs
S LRVH Noon, neophyte signs
W LRVH Evening, neophyte signs
NW TA, neophyte signs
N TA, neophyte signs
NE TA, neophyte signs
E TA, neophyte signs
SE TA, neophyte signs
S TA, neophyte signs
SW TA, neophyte signs
W TA, neophyte signs
Heavens TA, neophyte signs
Sheol TA, neophyte signs
W Lord of the Universe, neophyte signs

 

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Clothes dried, kitty happy. Coffee made, reading time.

 

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Reading Christopher, on re-evaluating living conditions, thinking on it.
A safe, secure, private, clean, happy place.
Thinking then about my Section 8 plan.
Will it fit the above bill?
Whatever the case, I'm here for another year on lease.
So, what can I do as a community resident to make the above criteria exist here? This problem solving skill needs sharpening.

 

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Had a bad dream. Chasing crackheads who stole from me, getting lambasted by family and society...woke up.

 

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Too early to do morning routine, but perhaps the midnight adoration and card of the day:
XIII Death. Scorpio. Change, transformation, shedding. Fish. 50.
Psalms 119 Nun, Psalms various with 22 verses will be analyzed for verse 14/22. Psalms 18 has 50 verses and verse 14 was interesting.

 

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Will do morning routine shortly.
When the sun is rising.

It occurred to me was the dream showed my shortcomings, which I must reflect on parts remembered. Perhaps it will reoccur.

I must, in my readings, quit skipping pages. Treat every word as precious.

This, for a book such as the Golden Dawn by Regardie is a monumental task. Figure on no social life for a good decade or two.

This is why an author such as Lyam Thomas Christopher or others in the Gallery of Magic should be read with care.

Ave and care,

Nocte Ac Die, Diluculo

 

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Adorations
S Neophyte signs
W Lord of the Universe, neophyte signs
W LRVH Evening adoration with neophyte signs
N LRVH midnight adoration with neophyte signs
E LRVH morning Adoration with neophyte signs
E Lord of the Universe adoration with neophyte signs
TA in all eight directions

Rituals
E
Qaballistic Cross
Invoking Spirit in blue flame LRP
Qaballistic Cross
W
Middle Pillar Ritual
Final TA to heavens and Sheol

Great and dizzying influx of power or energy.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Monday, 8-22-2022 (18=9)
Shaddai El Chai. Gabriel. Kerubim.
Sleep: good 6 hours.
Dreams: in a restaurant, 3 crackheads - one male, 2 female - take off running after the male steals something from me. I chase them, subdue them and beat them. All of a sudden I'm the bad guy. Criticized by family and society.
Moon Phase: 20.9% waning crescent in 5d11' Cancer.
Transits:
Sun 29°20’ Leo
Moon 5°11’ Can
Mercury 26°04’ Vir
Venus 13°05’ Leo
Mars 1°14’ Gem
Jupiter 7°44’ Ari R
Saturn 21°19’ Aqu R
Uranus 18°55’ Tau
Neptune 24°42’ Pis R
Pluto 26°36’ Cap R
Weather: 81/59, mostly cloudy
Mental Notes: Record offline journal.
Physical Notes: Quit being anxious at work, get used to loud sound.
Card of the Day: XIII Death. Scorpio. Change or transformation.
Adorations:
See above
Rituals
See above.
Meditations
Flame in the Heart
Point and Line

 

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Magickal goals:
1. Orderly dwelling where work can be diligently done.
2. Orderly life. Safe, secure, private, neat, diligent, responsible, accountable.
3. Simultaneously work through Anna Rivas Candle Magic and Lyam Christopher's Kaballah, Magic, and the Great Work of Self Transformation.
4. Build and dedicate elemental weapons, sword and staff.
5. Choose employment that coordinates with my interests.
6. Rebuild myself like the phoenix arising from the ashes.
7. When done with those two books, work through Regardies The Golden Dawn like a grimoire.
8. Work through Magick in Theory and Practice and Book4.
9. Work through A Garden of Pomegranates, The Philosophers Stone, and The Middle Pillar.
10. Take up a natural sciences curriculum and get into creative writing.
11. Work through Halls Secret Wisdom of All Ages like a grimoire.
12. Do ritual work for hire and get Masters in Anthropology.

 

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Got home from second day at the new job.
Chatted with neighbors for a bit.
Adorations:
E Lord of the Universe
S Afternoon Liber Resh Vel Helios
W Evening Liber Resh Vel Helios
N Midnight Liber Resh Vel Helios
E Neophyte signs
S Neophyte signs
W Lord of the Universe
Except for LRVH grade signs, rest were Neophyte signs.
Did Evening Neophyte Formula after adorations.
Tried to comb my cat to no avail.
About to open Christopher's book and get to re-reading.

 

[Öwnchef]

Congrats on your 2nd day!

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Congrats on your 2nd day!

Thank you - it was hectic, but it will be more hectic on game days.
What does scare me is the prospect of running the store by myself.