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Sold a wolf skin necklace and one painting. The deal was twenty bucks for every fifty sold. Sold forty five total tonight. The will exercise proves to be a slight success. I put forth the assertion that someone will buy something tonight.
Out on the streets again, come Monday morning.
Need to rehome Pandora this weekend at the shelter.
Then next week may move back with my parents.
EMOTIONS: Things winding to date, Tuesday, that my friend is kicking everything out of her apartment. So Pandora will go to the shelter, and I to Jackson.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
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No rituals have taken place in the last week, and won't be normal for three weeks time.
Donating my Cat to a shelter, trying to stay out of the shelter. Need to get to Parents house Tuesday latest. Then back to California before mid May.
So a few life stressors occurring in real time.
Got called a bum and told to get a job yesterday.
I quit this world. Too many people hate me. It's ridiculous to compete with others due to my disabilities. Still, I will be pretty much ground zero while it occurs. What I'm referring to is the decay of American society.
It makes me wonder, are American poor really rich, or still poor as a door?
I guess it depends on what we definitely be as poor.
Not eating. Sleeping with one eye open.
Not perhaps having prescription coverage for any given month. Not having resources to take public transportation.
Not having resources to help yourself let alone another.
On the brighter side there is freedom in some ways, as long as you're not known by many in the town. Or the world.
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It's been a rough couple of days, the seriousness of it all had hit me like a ton of bricks. I've dealt amongst a lot of eyes on me in the shelter and on the streets.
But it got better this am.
Had breakfast.
Raining so not out selling today.
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Was gifted with tuna for the cat by a pay it forward move, and then Zyn with the five dollars saved. And a dollar back. Or two.
My friend is doing my laundry for me. A ride is lined up within Tuesday to transport Pandie. After that, should transition to my folks place.
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Working on the python GUI program. Watching videos. Reading books. May have to reinvent the wheel programming wise.
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Going to watch on earth and air exercises, for element mastery. How the side reading has fit together. Closing of the Zelator grade. Outline of the Theoricus grade. Side reading and therapy. Perhaps pull a Superman and disappear into a bathroom for a LBRP and or LIRH and solar adorations daily when downtown.
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Going to work on Python Tk for a bit, then onto energy work. Then onto side reading.
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THOUGHTS Sun 4-28-2024 15:40 :
Pleasantly surprised. I have a functional almost GUI box with a title bar, input field to left and button to right. Then for it to calculate and spit out the birth month sun sign. It does exit on error which is nice.
Now to catch the input field value and click on convert to get the sign message.
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Student must study the following books:
The Equinox, Volume I, Nos. 1-10 by Aleister Crowley and others
Study of these books will give a thorough grounding in the intellectual side of Their system.
After these, study Liber LXI, Liber LXV and Liber LXVI.
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Starting with the Equinox. These and a couple of Python books, a book on Eight Method and Chi Gung, an Alexander Technique book. This is my evening reading.
EMOTIONS: Things winding to date, Tuesday, that my friend is kicking everything out of her apartment. So Pandora will go to the shelter, and I to Jackson.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
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Going out to sell papers shortly.
Last day or couple of days with Pandie.
The sun she be down on me. Did morning Solar Adoration, and now I know where East is.
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THOUGHT:
Going to shower and change, then go out to sell papers til 9pm.
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THOUGHT:
Change of plans. Shower and change, hand kitty over to humane society at 4:30, then perhaps sell papers.
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Gave Pandie up for adoption at the humane society intake center. Filled out and signed forms and said goodbye. Both of our hearts were crushed.
Distracted myself from sobbing by doing python programming. Got my latest version working nearly perfect.
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My leg tremors were so bad I couldn't work today.
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Triple Ten and Free CodeCamp are viable outlets.
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Was told by my partner, how to manifest via mudra. Was told I have a yellowish aura.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
About to get up and out to sell papers.
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On the Peoples express bus, to go sell the Peoples free press news. Why the peoples? The USA has fallen. Classes are being downsized across the board. The dollar is worthless. The higher ups haven't felt it yet.
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What should be cultivated in Chaos? Peace.
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Out selling papers, sold my first for the day. Taking a small break.
Deciding on whether or not to whip out laptop and code instead.
On the other hand, would like to sell ten papers today.
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THOUGHTS:
Taken off deal with SkullTraill. Sad but peaceful at the same time. Everybody is a damn grump.
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Abut y change location. A bit on the slow side today.
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*to change location.
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Sold ten papers which was my goal, 26 total made.
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Came home after sales of ten papers, ate, did some cleaning. Smoked down. I leave tomorrow for my folks place, after morning sales.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
Aside from Solar Adorations, have not done a ritual for ten days now. I guess I'm on Sabbatical.
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Program is not yet finished, but turning it in later today, passing the deadline. At least that small amount of integrity.
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Is sitting here at a friend's place for a couple hours, to transition to folks place, then keeping at "The art of Python programming, in theory and practice".
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Today has been a day of reality, but also a day of healing.
I'm off with family in an hour or two.
From there I will decide next steps
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Been resting and staying home. Less money made, but well rested.
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I think while I'm at my folks place, that I will get some reading and some programming done. And some AT daily implementation. Getting back to daily ritual sooner would be a plus.
I think while I'm at my folks place, that I will get some reading and some programming done. And some AT daily implementation. Getting back to daily ritual sooner would be a plus.
Wednesday 5-1-2024 20:07 EST
At folks place post dinner .. watching television. Having an on 8mg cinnamon nicotine pouch, and a cup of coffee.
Will do Zelator Formula and Alexander Technique.
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Retired for the evening. GUI still barely works, while the interpreter works just fine.
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DATE: May 2, 2024
DAY: Thursday, day of Jupiter. El, Tzadkiel, Aralim. Blue candles, Cedar incense.
TIME: 08:42 EST.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
Did ZF last night and some basic AT stretches. Doing Zelator Formula and AT today.
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Need to shower, shave and change clothes, then get to packing my stuff.
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Keeping at the Python programming in theory and practice. About to transition to my folks place, until I go back to Cali, where an Arduino board awaits me.
Copied code that the interpreter handles fine, and put it in the widget block. It changed behavior slightly, so will continue to hack at it.
Have the Arduino board and electronic parts.
Going to go through what I left at my folks place, and get rid of as much as possible.
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It won't be odd to do Alexander Technique at my folks place, as they do PT exercises and stretching and work out with a stair stepper.
They are going to go get a haircut, so Zelator Formula is on.
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Had a blueberry pancake the size of the plate with coffee for breakfast.
Zelator Formula about to be done as soon as folks leave.
Doing Alexander Technique exercises today, and repack clothes.
Book 4/Magick in Theory and Practice as my reading today. After that The Equinox Vol 1.
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Zelator Formula has been completed. Minus Body in Assiah.
Overall performance was great.
The old adage pays true ... Use it or lose it.
Because dualization and overall energy sucked.
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So, with little to do, going through research on the Alexander Technique, work on side reading, and work on Python programming. Maybe do all programs and exercises out of books.
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Since I have no Internet for my laptop, could not get code that I'm working on to SkullTraill in time. I hate being disadvantaged at times..
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On the upside, it gives me less pressure to actually learn the language.
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Learning a bit more about widget/GUI programming in Python. Which is good.
Geomancy, Alchemy, and Qabalah. That is the self assigned side reading.
Had three pieces of pizza for lunch.
Half mile ... 1001 steps on Qubii.
Dinners getting started.
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WEATHER:
75/44, sunny, showers tonight.
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Had two sloppy joes burgers and a handful of chips for dinner.
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Luckily my fellow magician didn't toss out my old diaries. Might do Saints prayers.
May start on angelic conjuration again.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
Did ZF last night and some basic AT stretches. Doing Zelator Formula and AT today.
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Talking with my folks, apparently I slept soundly, as I missed a lengthy lightning storm.
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Sun
13°36’ Tau
Moon
11°09’ Pis
Third Quarter Moon (297°33’)
Mercury
18°30’ Ari
Venus
5°01’ Tau
Mars
2°14’ Ari
Jupiter
24°43’ Tau
Saturn
16°51’ Pis
Uranus 22°32’ Tau
Neptune 29°00’ Pis
Pluto 2°06’ Aqu R
Node (M) 14°20’ Ari R
Node (T)15°22’ Ari
Lilith (M) 23°42’ Vir
Chiron 20°50’ Ari
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Perhaps I'm torturing myself, but searched the HVHS to see if Pandie has been put up for adoption yet. It appears she is still in the intake process.
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Venus ... What to do with Venus. Perhaps try glamour spells. Or two cause reconciling with others.
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Or to cause Pandie to be loved by the best owner to be.
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Did 1500 steps on the Qubii this morning.
That's 3/4 of a mile.
Had a sausage egg croissant for breakfast. Had the leftover sloppy Joe minus a bun.
Will shower and do Zelator Formula shortly.
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Had bologna sandwich and some chips for lunch. Python programming adventures continue today. Zelator Formula will get done today. Will finally take my shower before dinner time. Magick side reading will get done.
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And a big FUCK YOU to a certain someone. All you are is passive aggressive toxicity.
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On the brighter side, just relaxing right now. Got a little farther with my program. Still not 100%, but better.
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I don't care to be the person who knows everything. I want to know some things, but it's an expensive question. I'm okay with not being the smartest person. They quit giving away trophies for it a long time ago.
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Had pizza for dinner. Watching Penn and Teller Fool Us.
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Winding down for the night. Will try to remember my dreams tonight.
Last night's dream was my Dad and Stepmom going out somewhere, and my Stepmom was wearing a hoodie shirt of mine.
Got up, had blueberry pancake for breakfast.
Took a nap a few times.
Ate bologna sandwich with chips.
Did Zelator Formula.
Had slight argument with parents.
Took shower and changed.
Had applesauce, corn, scalloped potatoes and pork loin for dinner.
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DATE: May 5, 2024
DAY: Sunday, day of Sol. YHVH Eloah be Daath, Michael, Melekim. Gold candles, Frankincense.
TIME: 11:48 EST.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
Got up, had cereal and a banana for breakfast with coffee.
Hung out with parents, received a call from a shaman friend who says I have negative entities attached to me, that attacked her in her sleep.
Took a shower and changed into Jeans and T-shirt.
Going out to Red lobster for dinner.
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Went to RL for Lunner, had stuffed flounder with brussel sprouts. Got home after stopping off for three packs of On.
Had a piece of cake, then worked out on elliptical by me for half mile, burning 100 calories.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
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Did not do yrsterday's Zelator Formula. Will try to do before or after breakfast. Folks have an appointment in the afternoon, so that may get a good time.
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Still hacking away at the Zodiac Calculator. Up to version 12. Added convert function to call from widget function. Still need to bind return key and store entry text into bdate. Running into errors doing this.
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The text version runs fine.
The GUI entry is the main issue being tied to convert button.
So, struggling with Tk and Entry tying to a variable. The interpreter side has worked for over a week. The GUI side not so much. But every day there is progress.
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One more week until my laptop has Internet access again.
Hey, I don't know if this is the appropriate place to post this, but I've been homeless myself.
You can lie, have you called the coordinated entry line for the county? Shelters have been withholding this number here because of shelters being shelters. You're prioritized for housing based on the amount of money that leaving you homeless costs, or vulnerability.
Most counties with a major metropolitian area have a coordinated entry line, call, fill out the VI-SPDAT, say you've been homeless for over a year, there are some tips such as reporting everytime you've walked past a police officer as an episode of police involvement. I reported everytime I took an extra prescribed xanax or Adderall (which I do abuse) as drug abuse for example.
You'll want to score in the range for Permanent Supportive Housing, they won't have any, so you'll receive Rapid Rehousing instead. You're one of those able to maintain it.
What I needed was for more people to acknowledge that the system is actually that broken, your Magick likely isn't working because if you haven't noticed by now, it's kind of designed to keep you trapped. Think outside the box.
I hope it helps, you may have already tried this.
I'm studying to become a social worker to potentially help homeless people and it's another special interest of mine.
Had scrambled eggs, two sausage patties, and two pieces of toast with coffee for breakfast.
Did some program tweaking.
Did 3002 steps (burned 620 calories) on the elliptical machine.
Took a shower and changed into clean clothes.
Some may think I don't put effort into my journal entries, such as emotions. However, my eighteen year old and twelve year companion, Pandora/Pandie was put up for adoption nearly a week ago. I only hope she receives someone loving with a stable home.
Will do Zelator Formula shortly.
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Had a wild conversation on politics with my folks. Will be in Ann Arbor tomorrow or sometime this week, and will be returning unsold papers and a work vest.
May stop at the county building and get info on applying for section eight housing and call SSDI determination services and my lawyer tomorrow.
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I don't know why people get so heated in political discussions. It really is non sensical.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
A bit tired actually.
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Went to Ann Arbor, forgot to go to the county building. Will have to call Tom tomorrow. Did get to Pandas to drop off the papers and work vest and say goodbye.
My folks likewise kept their appointments.
Think I will do my Formula after they go to bed from r the remainder of my time here, then back at my Sisters home will do my Formula while they are at work. This way I can do it undisturbed.
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Had a sausage cheese and egg croissant from r breakfast with coffee, took my meds. Having chili for dinner, had no lunch.
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Did not take a shower due to time constraints and poor planning. Ditto with exercise. Will after dinner try to do 5000 stars, take a shower and change into lounge wear.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept barely. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS:
A bit tired actually.
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Will be showering and changing clothes shortly. Did laundry a day or two ago.
Need to go through my belongings here and pack.
Will do tarot draws shortly.
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Come Monday when back in CA, will post my Python code in my Journal. Some of my code works, some does not ... Will try to get those not working to a point of working. What SkullTraill might've been getting at was using generic, reusable code, whether for functions or libraries, instead of reinventing the wheel all the time.
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Had a blueberry pancake plate sized for breakfast with plain black Columbian coffee.
Worked on computer for a bit.
Took shower and changed into clean clothes.
Removed Quora from my phone, since it never works without errors and page refreshes take forever.
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Was going to get together with a friends end, but he got called into work.
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Sun
18°36’ Tau
Moon
26°31’ Tau
New Moon (7°55’)
Mercury
22°26’ Ari
Venus
11°23’ Tau
Mars
6°12’ Ari
Jupiter
25°56’ Tau
Saturn
17°16’ Pis
Uranus 22°49’ Tau
Neptune 29°09’ Pis
Pluto 2°05’ Aqu R
Node (M) 14°03’ Ari R
Node (T) 15°18’ Ari R
Lilith (M) 24°16’ Vir
Chiron 21°07’ Ari
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Spent a few minutes outside with my folks overlooking the geese and ducklings in the pond.
Had a fudge sickle.
Having pepperoni and pineapple pizza for dinner.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fairly well. Several complex dreams, no details recalled.
THOUGHTS:
Python programming adventures continue.
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Meditation day. Programming day. Need to refocus myself in Magick when I get back to California. I've stopped doing daily Zelator Formula, due to falling asleep before my folks, and getting up later than my folks.
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2600 steps on the elliptical, half by goal, 100 steps in less than a minute, 900 calories burned.
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Briefly cried last night for Pandie. I hope she gets a safe and secure loving home. If she was put to sleep, I hope she is in heaven, being loved by all.
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Called Humane Society, Pandie was put to sleep on the first. She had too many medical problems to be adoptable or have quality of life.
Rest in peace, my beloved Pandie.
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Napped for a bit, then got up, drank a can of Mountain Dew, then took a shower, shaved, and changed. Lunch in a minute.
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No lunch. Had a Sloppy Joe and chips for dinner with Mountain Dew.
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Worked out on elliptical this morning, perhaps try to burn an additional 1k calories tonight.
Do AT stretches before sleep tonight.
Have dream diary at hand tonight with pen, since dreaming has flared up.
Do Zelator Formula tonight, but use the Great Voice. Work hard at will with self awareness with the Great Voice, focused mind.
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DATE: May 10, 2024
DAY: Friday, day of Venus. YHVH Tzabaoth, Haniel, Elohim. Green candles, Rose incense.
TIME: 07:22 EST.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fairly well. Several complex dreams, no details recalled. Retail theft ring member as employees of the company was one theme of a dream.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fairly well. Several complex dreams, no details recalled. Retail theft ring member as employees of the company was one theme of a dream.
THOUGHTS:
Python programming adventures continue
Dad had a medical visit today, so stayed in bedroom and took a nap. Had a dream but don't recall details.
Had two sausage biscuits for breakfast, and small bowl of chili for lunch.
Need to get ready for return trip for the next couple of days.
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Visualized and the sed the Great Voice doing Zelator Formula last night.
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and used the Great Voice
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THOUGHTS:
To make a living, get proficient at research and trivia, then make a live ng as a game show contestant.
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make a living as
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Visionary Magick it is, until I have my own place. I want to work through grimoires, but don't know when or where to start.
I am still working through "Modern Magick" and "Kabbalah, Magic and the Great Work of Self-Transformation", to reach portal. I was thinking of continuing Golden Dawn books to see what opens up for me, but am drawn to Astrum Argentum as a road of study. Hoodoo/conjure, candle and planetary magic are also roads to explore.
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As far as mundane goals, still working at Python, C/C++, Arduino and Assembly programming languages. Web design is too saturated. Apps and games have been suggested as a point of study. Perhaps the space simulator program will take me somewhere when it gets finished. SATCOM, graph theory, TCPIP, networking in general. A mock operating system with text only filesystem. A BBS basically. Anthropology studies, language/linguistic application as cultural and physical aren't likely for me. Religion andagic applications of anthropology.
Research and writing at a journalism level. These are my long term goals.
Oil and Incense creation and sales. Perhaps candle making with precooled or incense candles. Talisman creation and sales.
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With my ritual journals retrieved as well as a few favorite books, need to pack after doing laundry. Take a shower before dinner. Do laundry after dinner. Pack tonight. Shred unnecessary documents tonight or tomorrow. Reduce the clutter left behind. Ideally all done tonight and spend day with folks tomorrow as I leave Sunday.
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Went through belongings left at my folks place. Shredded all paper unnecessary to keep.
Doing laundry next, shower and shave before dinner.
Then pack what I can.
One bag and one backpack left behind.
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For dinner, had a breaded pork chop, corn, au gratin potatoes, applesauce, and deviled eggs with mountain dew to drink.
Did first load of laundry, waiting to do second load.
Have everything together that needs to be packed excluding laundry. What doesn't get packed gets left behind.
Will do Zelator Formula tonight before bed.
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All laundry is being done. Will organize packing later. Modern Magick will be on y backpack to read on the flight.
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All laundry done, will be packing shortly.
A day off from the laptop, has given me more time to think about things in my life that need attention.
Have come to grips that I will not be wealthy in my lifetime. Have come to grips with pain and suffering in this life.
Have come to grips that friends come and go. Have come to grips that I need to be a better friend and person. Have come to grips we can only do our best.
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Some may frown on my journal as it's not esoteric enough for their liking. Yet adversity has been and is very severe from r my taste, and physical needs need to be met.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fairly well. Several complex dreams, no details recalled. With others in some sort of urban environment.
THOUGHTS:
I'm sad I was not there in the last moment with Pandie, but glad she is not suffering and hopefully in Heaven. Saturn day indeed. Been thinking long about time and death. Did not do ZF last night, even visually with Great Voice. Was again too tired. Will do tonight and tomorrow morning, same as showering. All packed and ready to go.
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Black candles, not green, and Sandalwood, not rose incense. A copy paste issue.
EMOTIONS: Understanding, content. Tired but joyful to be heading back to CA.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Tired, content that everything was packed yesterday.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
Not done.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fairly well. Several dreams, no details recalled.
THOUGHTS: Happy Mother's Day. Several celebrations and to airport ahead of time.
Good flight. Very sweet girl to my left and a guy to my right on the trip. Had a wheelchair both ways.
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DATE: May 13, 2024
DAY: Monday, day of Luna. Shaddai El Chai, Gabriel, Kerubim. Silver candles, Jasmine incense.
PHYSICAL CONDITION: Awake, feeling fine. Left arm strained and sore. Right arm and shoulder not so much. Sore back.
RITUALS: TBD later today.
BA, RR, TCR, Tarot Card of the Day. Zelator Formula: Adorations, QC, LBRP, QC, LRH Saturn Invoking, Invoking the Four Powers of Earth, MPR, Body in Assiah, Zelator Meditation. Adorations in all four quarters and East and West.
PERFORMANCE: TBD
RESULTS: TBD
MEDITATION: Per advice and Zelator and Neophyte TBD.
SLEEP and DREAMS:
Slept fair. No dreams recalled.
THOUGHTS: None ATM.
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Got my Fed return. Might just have to buy a book or two. McCarthys Quareia book, and Crowleys Liber ABA.
Awaiting grocery delivery.
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Brunch was a Healthy Choice Beef Teriyaki bowl. Yummy. 250 calories.
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Will do Zelator Formula after groceries are received. Including tarot draws and neophyte and Zelator meditations.
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The Zelator Formula has been done for the noon hour. And yes, I sweated my ass off.
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The tarot contemplation ritual, was 0, The Fool. Excitement, folly, mania.
Tarot card of the day, was Seven of Disks , Saturn in Taurus, Lord of failure, Netzach of Assiah.
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The day turned partly sunny, still some gray up there with the blue sky.
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Once I get cleaning done, unpack and tidy my room up, I will upload mega links to my code in my journal here. That way for those who program python can reveal to me why some portions don't work how they should. Still slugging it out with Ruth n, and about to take on C++. Brought the arduino and parts so La be I can get the t what taking and interface with C/C++ or Python.
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Tidied up my room a bit. Put clothes away. Did not get to cleaning .. yet.
Will soon go online and post the links.
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Curled up with my sister's cat and took a slight nap.
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Sat outside with coffee, now snuggling with my nieces cat.
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With at least a BMI of 30%, I need to get out and walk, every day.
That, do one situp a day, up to 31 per month (every day of the month do one more, starting Nov with one on the first of every month).
That, do Alexander Technique and Pilates every day. Quit posting and do it.
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Cleaned the kitchen a bit. Watched television until my brother came home. Still watching television to be correct.
However, inclined to go to bed early.
Had breakfast (beef teriyaki) and a bowl of Lucky Charms. Had a PBJ on white for lunch. Had another bowl of Lucky Charms for dinner.
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Went to bed after taking evening meds and brushing my teeth. Expecting odd dreams tonight.