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Spirits dont like messy temples. Well, aren't they all hotshots by now.
Newsflash: 50% of the world live in thatch huts and dirt, is there no possibility that a spirit would condescend to talk to them?
 
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Re-joined BALG, as I love that community as well. I am however, on an angel/angel magick and hoodoo path it seems. Not sure I will be playing with gourds, but I do use Psalms quite a bit.
 
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FRIDAY, 3/11/2022. Ruling Planet: Venus. Color of the day: Green.
Sleep/Dreams:
Minimal, but at least I got some sleep as opposed to the night/morning before. No dreams recalled, no recall of any name symbol, dreamscape or the likes.
Moon/Transits:
Moon currently 60.0% Waxing Gibbous in 18 degrees Gemini

Sun
Pisces
19°44’ Pis
Moon
Gemini
18°37’ Gem
Mercury
Pisces
0°26’ Pis
Venus
Aquarius
3°37’ Aqu
Mars
Aquarius
3°02’ Aqu
Jupiter
Pisces
16°07’ Pis
Saturn
Aquarius
19°50’ Aqu
Uranus
Taurus
11°53’ Tau
Neptune
Pisces
22°45’ Pis
Pluto
Capricorn
28°00’ Cap

Weather:
Currently snowing and cold and windy.
25 °F
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Precipitation: 88%
Humidity: 85%
Wind: 6 mph

Mood: Dep High Anx High Mood Mid
Diet: Tasty O's cereal, pesto bismol and coffee.
Exercise: None
Mental Notes:
Physical Notes:

Adorations:
Liber Resh Vel Helios AM x APM PM APM
Lord of the Universe. AM x PM

Rituals: (daily in order)
Tarot Contemplation Ritual- II The High Priestess -- Luna. Repetition, duplication. Done.
Body Awareness/Controlled Breathing- Sore legs/ankles, slight sprains in low and middle back. Teeth. Done.
Empty Mind Meditation-Will do with controlled breathing on bus on way to work.
Relaxation Ritual-Will do with controlled breathing on bus on way to work.
QC/Invoking Four Powers of Earth/QC- ADONAI HA-ARETZ, ADONAI. Done.
Ascent into Cube of Space- tonight
Rite of Elemental Equilibrium- tonight
Rising on the Planes Exercise- tonight
LRH, Venus invoking- YHVH TZABAOTH, ARARITA. Done.
Rite/Novena- tonight
Middle Pillar Exercise- tonight
QC/Banishing Four Powers of Earth/QC- tonight

Invocations:
Planet of Day- Venus
Planet Archangel prayer-
-HANIEL INVOCATION-
Friday- Day of Venus
+
In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.
Under the authority of YHVH TZAVAOTH , who governeth the sphere of Netzach and Venus, I call upon HANIEL , Grace of God, bringer of joy and warmth of the heart. Form us unto completion through integrity and responsibility and unselfishness as inheritors of the world imperfect. Shape us as reliable agents of the Lord’s grace and glory to assist Mankind in the Great Work of Reintegration.
Archangel Haniel, I humbly ask of your guidance and to bless my endeavor to connect with the positive energies of Venus. Rid me of vanity, overindulgence, and superficiality. Inspire me with love, compassion, sympathy, artistic expression, and provide me with healthy relationships; the means to maintain them, and the influence to facilitate them in others.
I submit this request in the name of the sovereignty of the Most High God the Father +, the unending love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ +, and the illuminating essence of the glorious Spirit Most Holy +. Amen.
Shem Angel invocation-
69th - ROCHEL. His attribute is "God Who Sees All". He corresponds to the Holy name od "Deos" in the language of the Cretans. His ray commences from the 341st degree up to the 345th degree inclusive, corresponding to the 35th decade and to the angel called Chotare, under the influence of Jupiter. The invocation is done from 10:400 pm to 11:pm exactly, pronouncing the 5th verse of Psalm 16: "The Lord is the portion of my inheritance and of my cup; thou maintains my lot.
He serves to find lost or hidden objects, and to know the person who has removed them. This angel rules renown, fortune and succession; he influences jurisconsults, magistrates, attorneys, solicitors and notaries. The person born under this influence will be distinguished at the bar, by his knowledge of morality, custom, and the spirit of the laws of all people.
The bad angel rules over reports, testaments and bequests that are made to the detriment of legitimate inheritors, he influence all those who cause the ruin of families, by provoking high fees and interminable court cases. Tarot Keys represented are King of Cups in Pisces, Ace of Pentacles, 8-10 Cups.
Prayers- Lords Prayer/Prayer of David

Meditations: tonight
Peace meditation with white pillar candle-
Meditation on Venus and Fire glyphs, as well as Taurus and Libra glyphs-
Meditation on point and line, salt cube-

Tarot:
Tarot Contemplation Ritual- II High Priestess -- Luna
Split Hexagram Spread- tonight
Celtic Cross Spread- tonight
Psychic Testing:
LG5- tonight
GTT- tonight
MCM- tonight
 
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9pm
Did afternoon and evening adorations to Lord of the Universe and Liber Resh Vel Helios, grade signs and sign of silence.
Venus LRH was fairly simple, but still need more practice with it. Sunday I should try all the forms after knowing exactly the steps of it.
LRP got a little messed up, so need to do another LRP in a minute.
Was hoping to do BA/RR beforehand as muscles are a bit stiff from a hard day of work.
Let’s see … what else … BRH Venus, LBRP, BA/RR, Banishing four powers of earth, middle pillar with 10x circulation.

10pm
Did QC/LRH Venus banishing, YHVH TZABAOTH, ARARITA/QC
Banishing four powers of earth/QC - ADONAI HA ARETZ, ADONAI
LBRP/QC YHVH, ADONAI, EHIEH, AGLA, Calling of archangels, then closing QC.
Feel grounded.
Sore but grounded.

SHS - What is my current spiritual health?
Greater Spiritual Influence - IV The Emperor. Aries. Order, Sight.
Lesser Spiritual Influence - XVII The Star. Aquarius. Hope, Meditation, Natures Revealing.
Spiritual Advice - XIII Death. Scorpio. Change, transformation, (ill aspected - sickness, death).
Unconscious Desires - XIX. The Sun. Sol. Regeneration, renewal, new age, happiness, security.
Conscious Desires - V The Hierophant. Taurus. Hearing, Sound. Divine intervention/prophecy.
Practical Advice - 0 The Fool. Elemental Air. No-Thing. Life Force. Source.
Final Outcome: XX Judgement. Elemental Fire. Revelation, renewal, rebirth.
ToD/BoD - VII/IX

11pm
To do for tonight – Stretching, possibly light Hatha Yoga poses like Snake/Cobra Pose, and Cat Pose.
Meditations -
Peace candle (Peace be unto Russia, Peace be unto Israel, Peace be unto Ukraine, Peace be Unto Jerusalem).
Point-Line-Cube (SALT)
Venus, Elemental Fire, Taurus, Libra Glyphs

Tarot-
Celtic Cross Spread for someone
Psychic testing: LG5, GTT, MCM

Rituals -
BA/RR
REE
ROTP
MP
Novena ?

Adorations - Midnight LRVH Adoration and bed.
Interesting translations on Hebrew letters spelled out in my split hexagram spread -
NTzH - “Eternity”
Awr - “Light”
Total spelling of keys - “Shorenza”

12am
Completed midnight Liber Resh Vel Helios adoration, almost messing it up via afternoon heading.
Researching step by step instructions for REE and ROTP. Actually, trying to write step by step instructions for them, the LRH with the drawn hexagrams.
Doing BA/RR and MP now I guess. I still have meditations to do before sleep.
There was, in recollection, a lot of young ladies out tonight on the U of M campus outskirts. Undergrad sorority was my guess, most blond. They tried their hardest to get my attention for their own thrill seeking, but I kept my own course, keeping a lookout for my ride home.
Im beginning to rethink my distaste for sex or relationships. They are nice, but can often come (no pun intended) with complications, like clingers, STDs, pregnancy/abortion, narcissists and the like on the bad side. On the good side, its all good.
On diet and exercise, I need to get a daily routine going. Eating once a day is not good, let alone starving yourself sometimes. So stock up on cereals/oats, natura milk cartons, and work should provide my lunch/dinner.
Exercise – had a memory recalled from my To Shin Do days. Speaking of which should at least start the fundamental strikes/kicks and rolling standing to standing again. The memory was a PE exercise in class via playing cards …
Decide exercises for trumps
Decide single count of trump or sets based on trump card
Do those exercises for each card drawn, no longer than 5 seconds in between any.
Ex:
Spades: Jumping Jacks
Diamonds - Burpees (Mountain Climbers and Pushup)
Clubs - One Legged Dead Drop
Hearts: Crunches
Imagine going through a standard poker deck, not to even mention the wildcards/jokers.
 
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TUESDAY 3/15/2022 (15=6 - HARMONY). Puling Planet: Mars. Color of the Day: Red.​

Sleep/Dreams:​

Minimal, but at least I got some sleep as opposed to the night/morning before. No dreams recalled, no recall of any name symbol, dreamscape or the likes.

Moon/Transits:​

Moon currently 91.5% Waxing Gibbous in 13 degrees Leo
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Moon Direction:313.88° NW↑
Moon Altitude:-15.34°
Moon Distance:244,054 mi
Next Full Moon:Mar 18, 2022, 3:17 am
Next New Moon:Apr 1, 2022, 2:24 am
Next Moonrise:Today, 4:53 pm
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Weather:​

Currently cold and windy, sunny.

Hourly Weather -Ann Arbor, MI​

As of 8:31 am EDT

Tuesday, March 15​

8:30 am​

35°

4%

8:45 am​

35°

4%

9:00 am​

35°

4%

Mostly Cloudy

  • Feels Like 35°
  • Wind ENE 3 mph
  • Humidity 83%
  • UV Index 0 of 10
  • Cloud Cover 73%
  • Precip Amount 0 in

Mood: Dep High Anx High Mood Mid​

Diet: Tasty O’s cereal, pesto bismol and coffee.​

Exercise: 15 pushups, 15 mountain climbers, 15 crunches, 15 burpees, no pause between.​

Mental Notes:​

Physical Notes:​

Adorations:​

Liber Resh Vel Helios AM x APM PM APM
Lord of the Universe. AM x PM

Rituals: (daily in order)​

Tarot Contemplation Ritual- XII The Hanged Man. Reversal. Elemental Water. Done.
Body Awareness/Controlled Breathing- Sore legs/ankles, slight sprains in low and middle back. Teeth. Done.
Empty Mind Meditation-
Relaxation Ritual- Done.
QC/Invoking Four Powers of Earth/QC- ADONAI HA-ARETZ, ADONAI.
Ascent into Cube of Space-
Rite of Elemental Equilibrium-
Rising on the Planes Exercise-
LRH, Mars invoking- ELOHIM GIBOR, [Mars] ARARITA.
Rite/Novena-
Middle Pillar Exercise-
QC/Banishing Four Powers of Earth/QC-

Invocations:​

Oratory Prayer
-ORATORY OPENING-

Angeli ad extra, Christus ad intra!

Supreme Architect of the Universe,
Grand Eternal One, under whose Sovereign rule all creation thrives,

by Thy Light shall every being shine.
Thou who art the true Supernal Brilliance of the Cosmos, “Thy Word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.”

Oh Thou who dwellest on the Limitless Horizon,
keep far from me all evil passions and cleanse my heart.
In Thy glorious Light shall I dwell in Truth, Righteousness, and Peace, “For Thou art my lamp, Oh Lord; and the Lord will lighten my darkness.”

Unto all those who share in the Divine Devotion,
Lord, guide us with Love towards Virtue and purity of heart. “Behold how good and how pleasant it is to dwell together in unity.”

-ORATORY CLOSING-

In humble gratitude to the Infinite do I dedicate my devotions, and in whose endless glory does every heart rejoice,
In whose Name do I now close my sacred prayers.
As the rays of Light continually flow from Omneity, stretching to the confines of space,
from Crown to Kingdom and Kingdom to Crown,
and as all the stars and planets reflect the Light of the Sovereign,
so may I ever strive to reflect the Light of Wisdom that I receive.

Angeli ad extra, Christus ad intra!

Planet of Day- Mars
Planet Invocation:
" THE INVOCATION OF MARS

"0 thou who are terrible in thy splendour; to whom it is given to wield the sword of five-fold flame! You have made us to fear thee! 0 champion of Fate that lighteneth and thundereth through the Ages, in thy chariot drawn by the Lion and the Ox.

Storm-bringer! Descend upon us and strike if it must be so!

"0Lord of the Just and Mistress of Splendour, make us to know thy terrible splendour! Thou friend of Purgation and Enemy of Ruin!

In thy name I have made my dwelling place in the boughs of the Olive tree of Peace! Thy flame have I fanned from the spark of the anvil, and thy sword I have claimed from the forge!

"By the power of thy word are our enemies cast down, and the powers of darkness destroyed. Your companions are the victorious and your joy is the joy of battle and strife - whose heroes await their reward in the pillar of the Just.

"Purifying flame of enchantment! Charioteer of the East!
Lord of Purgation and enemy of Ruin! I have washed in the
washing place of the South! I have rested in the North under the Oak! I have made my dwelling place in the Olive tree of Peace. And there have I borne your standard aloft, and the Mighty Sceptre called “Giver of Breath”.

Your flame have I fanned from the spark of the anvil, and your hammer and forge have I reclaimed from the forge. Your torch have I carried from Darom to Tzaphon and the light of your flame has touched Mizraach and Maarab! Of you is said; ‘His voice is as the roaring of thunder, and the bellows of the furnace of the Soul are his lungs’, and thy dominion and thy power are made steadfast by virtue of the iron rod of the King.

" 0 blood red fire of the heart of the ruby! Bearer of the Sword of Fivefold flame! Descend upon us 0 Lord of the Just and bathe us with the splendour of thy terrible beauty."

Planet Archangel prayer-
SAMAEL INVOCATION-

Tuesday- Day of Mars

In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Under the authority of ELOHIM GIBOR , who governeth the sphere of Geburah and Mars, I call upon SAMAEL , Venom of God, the Archangel of Death. Form us unto completion through energy, courage, and loyalty as inheritors of the world imperfect. Shape us as reliable agents of the Lord’s grace and glory to assist Mankind in the Great Work of Reintegration.

Archangel Samael, I humbly ask of your guidance and to bless my endeavor to connect with the positive energies of Mars. Rid me of impulsivity, cruelty, anger, and hate. Inspire me with proper motivation, assertiveness, vitality, the ability to calm my inner conflicts, and the endurance to overcome enemies both within and without.

I submit this request in the name of the sovereignty of the Most High God the Father +, the unending love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ +, and the illuminating essence of the glorious Spirit Most Holy +. Amen.

Shem Angel invocation-

Prayers- Lords Prayer/Prayer of David

Meditations​

Peace meditation with white pillar candle-
Meditation on Mars and Fire glyphs, as well as Scorpio and Aries glyphs-
Meditation on point and line, salt cube-

Tarot:​

Tarot Contemplation Ritual- See above.
Split Hexagram Spread- tonight
Celtic Cross Spread- tonight

Psychic Testing: tonight​

LG5-
GTT-
MCM-

Arts and Crafts​

Paint Outer Order Wand of Double Power
Paint pieces of cardboard from a cereal box (in place of wood chips or crushed tealight tins might be better) as a sorcery of a talisman, try to create glyphs today for Elemental Fire, Mars, Aries and Scorpio, Pentagram, Pentagon, and number 5.
Problem: Which complimentary colors to use, as well as exactly which scale out of the four (princess/knave, Prince/Knight. Queen, King) to use on the talisman?
Consecrate the talismans.
 
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Magickal Goal #1: For the next three weeks, I will apply all of my powers to make sure March and April Rent will be paid in a timely manner.
Magical Goal #2: For the next two weeks, I will apply all of my powers to ensure that with daily tips, half will go to Temple Supplies, the remainder will go into my bank account.
Magical Goal #3: For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to improve my appearance/grooming.
Magical Goal #4: For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to clean and organize my room, including doing all laundry and bedding.
Magical Goal #5: For the next year, I will apply all of my powers to apply all resources that have been made available to me to improve my education and mind, reading each resource and applying it. For each resource, I will apply all of my powers to master each resource available to me for my development as a human being, a man, and a magician.
(Currently I am following Kaballah, Magic, and the the Great Work of Self Transformation; Shemhamphoresh; and utilizing rituals and material from Golden Dawn resources, incorporating them into a daily routine).
Magical Goal #6: For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to ensure that I exercise daily, and eat and drink what is beneficial to my body.
Magical Goal #7: For the next six months, I will apply all of my powers to be able to dream and more importantly recall as much detail as possible and record it immediately into my journal that is always on my bed near my pillow.
Magical Goal #8: For the next six months, I will apply all of my powers to master Neophyte and Zelator material, as well as take a proactive learning and doing of geomancy and astrology charts with decent interpretation of each.
Magical Goal #9: For the next year, I will apply all of my powers to handle all outstanding mundane issues and bills, to ensure I reduce over time what I owe and stay out of trouble financially and legally.
Magical Goal #10: For the next year I will apply all of my powers to hold a daily ritual, for whatever purpose it may be, currently Shem Angels are the topic.
Action toward the ten goals:
Magickal Goal #1:
For the next three weeks, I will apply all of my powers to make sure March and April Rent will be paid in a timely manner.

  • Get up early tomorrow, groomed, get paychecks from Pancheros and StayBridge.
  • Go to other Five Guys location and see about paycheck.
  • Take to bank and deposit.
  • Do this each pay cycle.
  • Pay roommate in full, or at least what is available at this time, and repeat cycle.
  • Journal daily.
    Magical Goal #2:
    For the next two weeks, I will apply all of my powers to ensure that with daily tips, half will go to Temple Supplies, the remainder will go into my bank account.
  • See about replacing Pancheros with Five Guys to be full time and therefore receiving tips 5-6 days a week.
  • At the end of each day, put money in two envelopes, Savings and Temple Supplies, split between the two envelopes the cash.
  • Keep a record and receipts. Journal daily.
    Magical Goal #3:
    For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to improve my appearance/grooming.
  • Gather fresh clothes and grooming kit and get up and take a shower, dress, and groom.
  • Go through clothes and see if they interest me let alone anyone else taking interest in them.
  • With savings, use sparingly, a pair of shoes for work and a pair for personal.
  • Go to Goodwill and see about a suit and dress shirts.
  • Get to a dentist, keep eyeglasses clean and scratch free and adjusted.
    Magical Goal #4:
    For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to clean and organize my room, including doing all laundry and bedding.
  • Look into a pickup/dropoff laundry service cost.
  • Every day from savings tips, take laundry money for one load, do one load a day.
  • Every day do one act to make it cleaner and tidier.
    Magical Goal #5:
    For the next year, I will apply all of my powers to apply all resources that have been made available to me to improve my education and mind, reading each resource and applying it. For each resource, I will apply all of my powers to master each resource available to me for my development as a human being, a man, and a magician.
    (Currently I am following Kaballah, Magic, and the the Great Work of Self Transformation; Shemhamphoresh; and utilizing rituals and material from Golden Dawn resources, incorporating them into a daily routine).
  • Do daily work
  • Take notes in notebooks.
  • Keep lily dream and ritual diaries, ensuring every day there is a record, but no record of “no work done” or blank pages from past.
    Magical Goal #6:
    For the next three months, I will apply all of my powers to ensure that I exercise daily, and eat and drink what is beneficial to my body.
  • Eat oatmeal in the morning before brushing teeth, even if bland or a little salt.
  • Do at least one set of ten pushups, ten setups, ten mountain climbers and ten crunches.
  • With savings, buy good food from the market.
  • Use advice for low cost processed solutions as well.
    Magical Goal #7:
    For the next six months, I will apply all of my powers to be able to dream and more importantly recall as much detail as possible and record it immediately into my journal that is always on my bed near my pillow.
  • Cut down intake of caffeine.
  • Find a therapy outlet.
  • Wind down before bed.
  • Try to reduce stress.
  • Keep journal and pen at hand.
  • Remind myself nightly that I want to dream.
  • Get a full 6-8 hours sleep daily in one block of time.
  • Set a standard sleep schedule.
    Magical Goal #8:
    For the next six months, I will apply all of my powers to master Neophyte and Zelator material, as well as take a proactive learning and doing of geomancy and astrology charts with decent interpretation of each.
  • Self explanatory
    Magical Goal #9:
    For the next year, I will apply all of my powers to handle all outstanding mundane issues and bills, to ensure I reduce over time what I owe and stay out of trouble financially and legally.
  • Personal
    Magical Goal #10:
    For the next year I will apply all of my powers to hold a daily ritual, for whatever purpose it may be, currently Shem Angels are the topic.
  • Self Explanatory
Deadlines: specified in goal
Ritual action for the ten goals:


Planning a Novena in my head based on my goals, such as to make customers be more generous with tips rather than amount of food they buy.

That right there might buy a book as a weekly temple supply.
Would sure as hell pay for candles and incense and art supplies.

Just got up, a little broken sleep, abut 7 hrs total.

Plan for the day:
Brew some coffee - done
Do morning adorations - done
LRP with controlled breath - done
Shower and get dressed. - done
Invoke Archangel Uriel, Archangel Sandalphon, Archangel Gabriel, and angels Shiniel, Qophiel, and Taviel. Done, asked for guidance protection and wisdom and for the paths to be traveled.
Do guided path workings/meditations reading and listening.
Get on the bus to get my checks to the bank for rent.
On the bus, use headphones to listen to archangel Auriel and archangel Sandalphon.
Note all synchronicity/occurrences. Have journal and pen at hand.
At work tonight, note unusual occurrences, try to be the best you can be.
If you got fired from rancheros or Staybridge, contact Tina and tell her you can do 40+ hours a week. If so, do that the best you can do.
Calculate how much is still outstanding for rent.
Will look into the druidry group today.
Invoke the Element of Earth today.
Do evening adorations and LRP in bathroom before work.
Work 4-8 at StayBridge. Bring leftovers home if possible.
Payback Rio and go visit Max.
Come home, do Novena ritual, MP and go to bed.

Also, before I forget, did 10 mountain climbers, 10 pushups, 10 setups and 5 crunches before leaving home.

Got chewed out by a mod due to post content, and other points, so said okay.
Will post in my journal until somebody asks something I can answer for them. Id like to remain a member, so playing by all the rules.

By the way, Im handling my behavior. No more outbursts. Someone else can provide entertainment or irritation.

Im following Christophers Kaballah, Magic, and the Great Work of Self Transformation.
I plan to do this start to finish and am doing it at Earth grade material. Except for a few rituals I need to fully understand to do. At least Neophyte work is handled.

I also follow a lodge Shem Angel paper that has info on Shem Angels and angels by days. I am not abandoning angels, this is central to what I aim to do. However, I am handling them by priority, the first text will always be full priority, not just high but full as start cover to finish cover. Then onto the next, while still working with angels. If I read Psalms or am a Christian, it ism not outside of my beliefs and or pay grade.

Now, other areas, yes, I started with Witchcraft and will always consider myself a witch.
I am of Celtic origin, therefore I am interested likewise in fay, and Celtic magic and charms. Sometimes cursing needs to be done, so I occasionally pick up a little something.

So, on to my day after leaving to get stuff done:
Got out to the bus, had a quarter of a cigarette and threw up, dry heaving due to no food.
Walked up to the gas station and got a pork eggroll and a cheeseburger roller grill duo, along with energy water, in case the heaving was due to dehydration.
Ate the egg roll in practically one bit, and half the greasy burger thing. Threw up.
Got on the bus, went and picked up two out of three paychecks, deposited one and cashed one.
Ventured another stab at eating, so went next door to Starbucks and got a capresi sandwich and super fruit greens smoothie drink. Stayed down, so not a flu. I think the roller grills weren’t cooked all the way.
Picked up a little something else and had a coffee since I showed up next door to my workplace three hours early.
Now at work.

Sychronicity:
While waiting for a bus and thinking of magical goals, Busybody Student Laundry 665-Cool. Cool.
Still at half my rent for the current month, so will hit up family to see if I can borrow yet again to be on solid ground now that my job can handle paying rent. This is related to Magical Goal #1. So my thought is to hold a Novena tonight to attract business, and call on an angel for assistance it having it come to pass, more business customers who tip more and tip frequently. This gives me money and fills a goal, because half those tips will go to temple supplies, the rest of my money to past rent and books/temple stuff.
Not sure if both of these are synchronicities as silver is abundant everywhere in car color, so color of the day , well, I wear a silver-grey shirt for work, so there is that.
Recall staring at a stainless steel counter wrap that was crosshatched, giving an impression of millions of triangles. Interesting and silver.

As far as elementals go, this is also within my rights as Im in earth element,
So, gnomes and geomancy get to be new friends.
Also get to construct an Enochian Earth Tablet.
Also am urged to connect with Sandalphon and Uriel during this grade. And I never knew the four quarters of earth/malkuth included the archangels and elementals, so thank you for that tip too
:slight_smile:


So, tonight, I work on more magic to fulfill my magical goals. And do my grade work.
 
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Been a while..Well, banned from BALG.

And for some reason I cannot copy todays journal entry to here, to save myself time and trouble.
So, guess I will post minimal content.

Friday 4/01/2022 (4+1+20+22=47=4+7=11=2, Repitition, and duplication). Ruling Planet: Venus. Color of the Day: Green.

Sleep/Dreams:

The usual.

Moon phase/transits:

10 degrees Airies, New Moon



Moon: 0.4%

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Moon Direction:323.15° NW↑
Moon Altitude:-41.21°
Moon Distance:239,743 mi
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Feels Like 27°

High / Low --/29°

Wind 12 mph

Humidity 73%

Dew Point 28°

Pressure 29.64 in

UV Index 0 of 10

Visibility 9 mi

Moon Phase New Moon

Mood:

Low.

Diet:

Getting better. Gyro bowl with rice, meat, veggies and sauce at work, or sample what I cook at the Hotel job. Eating better, still not at a four course meal level.

Exercise: Get off your ass and do:

30 Jumping Jacks

30 Situps

30 Pushups

30 Mountain Climbers

30 Burpees

30 Crunches

30 Deck Squats

I am increasing the count by ten until I get up and do them, in which case it drops back to 10 to train the will and stamina.

Physical notes:

None. Usual growing pains and problems from not keeping up with responsibility of the body. Do need to shed probably 20 pounds and build muscle. Simply to feel good about myself, and no other reason.

Mental Notes:

Work on gathering the ingredients for the Male Smoothie.

Adorations:

Liber Resh Vel Helios

Lord of the Universe

Rituals:

QC/LBRP/QC

MP

Will Exercises

Silence Exercises

Clairaudience Exercises

Clairvoyance Exercises

Visualizations

Meditations

Chakra/Energy Work

Tarot Contemplation Ritual:

Shem Angel of the Day:


13th – IEZALEL. His attribute is “God Glorified In All Things”. He corresponds to the holy name of the God “Boog” from the Illyrian tongue. His ray begins at the 61st degree and goes to the 65th inclusive, corresponding to the seventh decade and to the angel called Theosolk, under the influence of Jupiter. He rules over the following days: 1st April, 12th June, 23rd August, 3rd September, 14th January. The propitious time begins at 4:00am and ends at 4:20am. One must recite the 4th verse of Psalm 98: “Make a joyful noise unto the Lord, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise” (Jubilate Deo omnis terra: cantate, et exultate, et psallite).

He rules friendship, reconciliation and conjugal fidelity. A person born under this influence will learn everything he desires with ease; he will have happy memories and will distinguish himself through his speech.

The bad angel rules over ignorance, error and lies, and influences those limited souls who wish neither to learn nor to do anything.

Reading Resources and associated work there of:

Still in Christophers Earth material, but feel like I skipped reading in Neophyte, and words are put in a book for a reason. So back to Neophyte I go, read thoroughly, reflect, put into action. Record in offline journal and keep workings private. Practicing Silence exercises.

Novena

Private. Will experiment with Pumpkin Chai in relation to ideas as an oil, that of plenty harvest and spirit. Earthiness. Use with Green and white candles. Patchouli as incense.

Shem Working: Work through method in 72 Angels of Magic and lodge paper. Read and thoroughly understand before applying. And a robe and belt is probably required.

I think I will wear martial arts belts as my grey robe belt.

Mental note: Go out and buy a Green-White, solid Green, and Green-Black belts, as well as Brown-White, solid Brown and Brown-Black belts as alternate Earth Belts. White possible. Symbol of entry level in the belt system. Start with robe and white belt. The belts listed to buy were grades not obtained. If Im going to be a solitary Ninja again (self retrain in katas and fundamentals), then the belts will be necessary. Symbolism and recognition of element grade.

Mental note: Is it enough to use oils in the water cups, or is a diffuser necessary? Is oil necessary if candles are not being used?

Mental note: After creating the Enochian Tablet of Earth on cardstock, how to consecrate, charge and use, as well as open and close it properly?

PLANETARY ANGEL INVOCATION

-HANIEL INVOCATION-

Friday- Day of Venus




In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Under the authority of YHVH TZAVAOTH , who governeth the sphere of Netzach and Venus, I call upon HANIEL , Grace of God, bringer of joy and warmth of the heart. Form us unto completion through integrity and responsibility and unselfishness as inheritors of the world imperfect. Shape us as reliable agents of the Lord’s grace and glory to assist Mankind in the Great Work of Reintegration.

Archangel Haniel, I humbly ask of your guidance and to bless my endeavor to connect with the positive energies of Venus. Rid me of vanity, overindulgence, and superficiality. Inspire me with love, compassion, sympathy, artistic expression, and provide me with healthy relationships; the means to maintain them, and the influence to facilitate them in others.

I submit this request in the name of the sovereignty of the Most High God the Father +, the unending love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ +, and the illuminating essence of the glorious Spirit Most Holy +. Amen.

-TZAPHKIEL INVOCATION-

Saturday- Day of Saturn




In the Name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit, Amen.

Under the authority of YHVH ELOHIM , who governeth the sphere of Binah and Saturn, I call upon TZAPHKIEL , Contemplation of God, Archangel of spiritual strife against evil, and keeper of the Akashic records. Form us unto completion through silence, steadiness, and perseverance as inheritors of the world imperfect. Shape us as reliable agents of the Lord’s grace and glory to assist Mankind in the Great Work of Reintegration.

Archangel Tzaphkiel, I humbly ask of your guidance and to bless my endeavor to connect with the positive energies of Saturn. Rid me of inertia and self-destruction. Inspire me with patience, discipline, responsibility, wisdom of experience, meditation, and the proper management of all structure, limitations, and boundaries.

I submit this request in the name of the sovereignty of the Most High God the Father +, the unending love of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ +, and the illuminating essence of the glorious Spirit Most Holy +. Amen.

(Frater S, Invocations off the Archangels)

INVOCATION OF VENUS

"

Lucifer! Star of the morning! Arise! Arise, 0 thou flame of compassion, and cause us to bathe in the splendour of your emerald light! Upon our brow is set the nemmys of starlight; and we stand and behold as you bear the Goddess aloft in your arms!’

"From caverns deep and subterranean your song issues forth.

Verily upon the evening breeze through the twilight. Across moorland and the waters of lakes it drifts; calling us to evensong and worship. For your mysteries are contained in the sound of the tolling of the bells that call us to the Temple!

"To me! To me! Sings the Priestess in her rapture as, naked, she lies upon an emerald throne! Arise! Arise! 0 thou flame of the Nephesch, and cause us to bathe in the vision of the triumphing of beauty!

"Lucifer! Nogah! Arise, arise o flame of the Nephesch and attune that which lies eternally within us to the Cosmic symphony without! Bringer of Light! 0 thou bearer of the standard of the Royal Art - the Rose and the Cross! I worship you with peals of laughter, for the stuff of lust is the substance of your joy!

"Upon Wings of Wonder you bear me in my passions - above the Cornfields and the Maize. And your knowledge brings the fawn to the forest glade, and the Swan to the lake.

"Lucifer! Nogah! Lead me to the Temple steps and illuminate my offering!

"Lapis Excillit! Lucifer! Nogah!

"Smaragdine lustre of the emerald stone and flashing starlight!

Descend upon us and cause us to behold the beauty of thy ways, and bless the aspirations of our hearts.""

(Stephen Ashe, Complete Golden Dawn Initiate)

Invocation to Haniel/Tzaphqiel done

Invocation of Venus done

#Adorations done - Midnight, Morning, Afternoon, Evening, Midnight

Qabalistic Cross done

LBRP done

Qabalistic Cross done

Middle Pillar done
 
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Tarot Spread
"King Paimon, will you work with me? And if so, what will you teach me?"
Signofocator: Nine of Wands
Covers: XIX The Sun
Crosses: Two of Pentacles
Crowns: Ten of Pentacles
Beneath: King of Wands
Behind: Six of Wands
Before: Ace of Wands
Querent: Knight of Swords
Environment: VIII Strength
Hopes and Fears: Four of Pentacles
Final Outcome: Three of Cups

Top of Deck: XV The Devil
Bottom of Deck: Eight of Pentacles

Interesting.
 
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I hate to ruin your fun BALG spies (actually I dont care about a damn thing atm), but its not the first time Ive been dismissed by or shunned by a group or even society.
I think it was a tad tasteless, tacky, and ignorant to be based on feminism and someones hurt feelings on the other board, Anyway, no irritating people exist here like they were abundant there, so its really absolutely nothing there. A bunch of delusion.
Okay.
To be real, Im putting out what I think is necessary for me to do.
I got screwed bad by people.
Im therefore out.
I am not into competing with anyone for anything,
It (magic) doesn't work for me, for whatever reason.
I have no time to waste on stupid pointless crap or trying to Devote myself top any party who doesn't care.
Its no enjoyment there or positive experience at all.
Oh, and spirits, much like their human counterparts are assholes.
 
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I will give it one last stab by three things:
1. A ritual I do, if it doesn't work, hang the hat.
2. Contacting Nate Bales for a ritual on my behalf.
3. Devoting myself theistically to a spirit.
Past that, there is nothing more to say.
 
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And my thoughts teeter toward suicide, but thats just what they want me to do.
 
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Fuck it. Since nobody cares, on any magic board or in real life. I will just go ahead with Qlippothic Self Initiation. One month in each sphere.
 
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Now what the hell do I do with 100 tealights and 100 birthday candles, now that I realize magic will ever be a possibility for me, while its simple for everyone else I encounter. Some people jut aren't meant to do certain things. I guess my birth chart analysis was a load of crap. Either that or Mike_Bee, Mulberry and the rest of the wrecking crew from BALG have a real hate on for me, since they never ease up on me.
 
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Just an instant failure at anything and everything. Suicide seems like a winning option here.
 

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Magick is apparently not for me, much like anything in this world.
Maybe the reality of it is taking the wrong tack towards it.

Honestly, I found far more useful magic in bits and pieces from works of fiction more than I ever did in a "how-to" tome.

I would recommend starting with The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfus.

Most larger works of fantasy fiction have had their systems of magic wrapped around small kernels of useful mechanisms. Rothfus's work is no different.

I would emphasize in fact reading The Slow Regard of Silent Things once you read the first two of The Kingkiller Trilogy.

There is a VERY deep discussion there on The Law of Attraction, in addition to the Alar
 
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Appreciate it, but Ive reached the conclusion that it won't work. Everyone else is absolutely fine. Absolutely everyone else can use magick with no problems, and being happy.

Anyone know the quickest route to physical death offhand?
 
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Appreciate it, but Ive reached the conclusion that it won't work. Everyone else is absolutely fine. Absolutely everyone else can use magick with no problems, and being happy.

Anyone know the quickest route to physical death offhand?
Oh, and to my last teacher, the biggest slime ball on this planet, thank you for all your easy work in trying to help me.
 

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Appreciate it, but Ive reached the conclusion that it won't work. Everyone else is absolutely fine. Absolutely everyone else can use magick with no problems, and being happy.

Anyone know the quickest route to physical death offhand?
LOL! AS IF! I have done a grand total of three evocations ever. And I am not "happy".

I'm alive, and I have challenges in my life. That's about the extent of it.

Most of my "enlightenment" has come at DEEP costs, if you could even call it that.

You are getting facebooked: seeing successes without seeing the failures.
 
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