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Organized place a bit, did laundry in tub and hung to dry.
Setup altar. Micahal's seal and kamea are on the altar as sort of a compeller to Raphael, the focus of tonights activity. An attempted evocation.
Pictures follow, I will let you all be the judge, on what you think, and if Raphael (the real one) is one of your inner contacts, let me know if Im full of crap or if he shooed and heard, I believe he did by action of the flame per my command.
Organization
Setup of Altar
Adoration to Lord of the Universe (facing west of altar which faces west)
Three times clockwise circumabulation, with an adoration each tie passing west.
Stopping at east of altar, facing east, commenced to do a QC/LBRP/QC
Sat down, read the two Blessings of HaShem.
Concentrated on seal and thought it moved, so called out to Raphael, affirmed it was him by penalty of a lightning strike from God to an imposter, and an exorcism and purification by word.
Asked pointed questions to who I thought was Raphael, some shook left and right, some raised as a yes to my question.
I gave my charge, then asked to commune with him. I brought up the story of Tobit, and asked for assistance from him on that, as well as to destroy parasites and imposter spirits in my dwelling, as part of the charge.
Closing meditation and pics, gave license to depart.
Grounded.
Did QC/LBRP/QC

Setup altar for Sachiel/Tzadkiel.Water cups arranged in form of pentagram. Green personal cup, orange objective cup. One blue candle to either side of the seal, fire cup with incense in top left corner of altar. tourmaline and shungite supporting seal resting against silver water cup. Wandf on left, dagger in center, lapis and quarts on either side of dagger (lapis on right).
Siddur and jurnal in front of altar.
 
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Sorry .. you will have to click on each link. My computer has been screwy all day.
 
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I wish those with a Magus level sum total persons that see my posts, would simply point me in the right direction.
The internet and occult world is filled with misonformation, and to put it bluntly, snares and traps and blinds oh my!
Can you imagine how many bad teachers we could avoid at the outer order level?
Perhaps the Magi are trying to silently tell me something? As in shush?
Sorry, have to interject humor, I really hope Archangel Raphael was in fact in attendance in my dwelling tonight, because it feels same old same old.
 
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Unless everyone in my building has their lives turn around for the better, this ritual was a failure.
 
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The answers I get here are as confusing as on BALG. I guess I quit asking questions or something.
 
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Okay. No-one really wants to help me, I get it. I mean, I appreciate the advice and the help provided, but Im still lost as to what people are talking about on here.

I guess I will stick to the books Im working and hope one of them in the end changes things for me for the better.

If the BALG assholes are going to attack me, they're going to attack me. It doesn't mean I should stop what Im doing when things occur. My work is my work and needs to get done. Screw the jerks.

"There is no rest for the wicked". Not so sure about that these days.
So because I want to admire and live the traits of love, kindness and compassion; I get endlessly attacked. Yet they are the tolerant ones?
 
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Bullies apparently will always be bullies; the ones Ive known despite their age never change whatsoever, they find their behavior normal and socially acceptable; which are all false of course, but they're blind to the truth.
 
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If I have to live in pain for a temporal while, then so be it, because it will make me stronger. Okay.

Im continuing with the work, from Christophers book. I need to put my all into it and finish it. Not rush it, but finish it. Okay.

Also, need to be more vague about my workings or needs or goals I guess. There should be a safe place to record them, and I guess that means an offline journal. Okay.

Finally, if it doesn't change things, then work the next one and so on. If people have an issue with the Golden Dawn, its my opinion that they never gave it their all to try to make it work for them. The Golden Dawn is filled with so much knowledge and wisdom, I can never ever believe people who ba talk it, because they never worked that book like it was a grimoire. So, work each book like a grimoire. Okay.

If all else fails, then therapy, work, and a personal realization that while magic may work for some, perhaps I was never meant to do magick. Then live life as a church goer, perhaps the Greek Orthodox Church. Or as an atheist. Therapy and work not optional. I got myself into my mess, then perhaps its me that has to get myself out of it. Magic would be nice, but apparently my working without aid of magic, to work all of it off is my key to freedom.
 
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Working Chirstophers book -- time to use the Zelator formula daily, not clinging to the Neophyte formula because its the least work.
Time to get good with the Hexagram and Pentagram rituals now that these are key to the formulas until the Hod or Netzach patterns.
I want Yesod to open up to me, that gives me more paths I can work.
It won't be without its problems though, and the only spirits helping me will be the archangel of the sphere or the angel of the path.
This is where the RHP is stronger than the LHP in my opinion. LHP has too much reliance on help of demons to do anything.
Im hoping visualization and power will come with daily use of the Zelator formula, then we merge in the Theoricu formula after a few months. Ath this point three planets are worked on with the LRH, Saturn, Luna, forget the third.
But I think a winning trio for me to work with their positive energies would be a trio of Saturn Mars and Sol.
 
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Perhaps small goals, like how to detect and remove and destroy parasites.
 
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Still ill. This marks the third day not able to work, which is a loss of 450 total for the days not worked. Im currently in need of 300 to make rent, This was not helpful to me, perhaps irresponsible and foolish. Perhaps rash or overreactive.

Perhaps I need a job that garners more respect and removes me from foolishness of others. Like a Secretary of State clerk or the like.
 
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General reading for the day - Split Hexagram Spread
Greater Spiritual Influence: XX Judgement
Lesser Spiritual Influence: IX The Hermit
Spiritual Advice: II High Priestess
Final Outcome: VIII Strength
Practical Advice: VI The Lovers
Unconscious Desires: XIV Temperance
Conscious Desires: IV The Emperor

Top of Deck XVIII The Moon
Bottom of Deck III The Empress

Interpretation withheld, as Im working through Tarot Skills for the 21st Century. Point taken, to stay in one place for all eternity at something like the Tarot, is a great way to become a joke to some.
 

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Okay. No-one really wants to help me, I get it.
Hey cheer up man, people can only tell you what they would do when in your situation. The actual doing has to be done by yourself.
I've been reading this thread and others of yours on and off and I know that some of us have tried to give you advice. But in the end that's all anyone can do (plus sending some positivity your way).

Tonight is Walpurgis' Nacht. Have some fun.
 

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Practical Advice: VI The Lovers
I'm going to look at this from the viewpoint of the Tarot de Marseilles decks...
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Point being, this card is often interpreted as CHOICE. While your HGA will try to help you do the right thing, you still have conscious choice on which path to take. The thing is, if you DON'T make a choice, you don't get anywhere. If you are fickle, going back on your choices, you never really advance either. This is the "practical advice" I see.

Final Outcome: VIII Strength
For a magician, Strength is paramount. Coagula and Solve. The gathering of magical energy and the dispersal of said energy according to WILL.
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The Lion protrudes from the body because it is a representation of the inner desires, often competing with one another. To master one's desires is key to focusing one's will. Also, to quote John Michael Greer from his recent blog post "
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The secret of magical power is the control of the astral light, the great magical agent which has been discussed at such length in previous chapters. The art of controlling the astral light requires mastery of two skills. The first is setting the astral light in motion and dispersing it. The second is concentrating and stabilizing it. In the Latin of the old alchemists, these are solve and coagula, “dissolve” and “coagulate,” and the results are discussed constantly in alchemical texts as the volatile and the fixed, the winged and wingless dragons, the bird and the snake, and so on through the whole bestiary of alchemical emblems. The same paired processes can be found in countless guises all through the literature of occultism, and in some contexts that seem wholly unrelated to occultism. Look for them and see what you can find.
 

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Thus, make a commitment and follow through over a longer period of time than you might normally like to wait for results, say at least six months or even longer if need be. Tarot is divination, not fortune telling. The "final outcome" only happens IF you follow the practical advice...
 
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