Magick practising Christians?

[slim116]

slim116 said "But when i disconnect, i feel homeless in a soul level, like im in the frontier with no allies, wild west crap shoot, making dodgy alliances to survive, always looking over my shoulder."

Hello, I think what you are describing is the feeling that you get when you are 'deconstructing'. Your spiritual safety net is gone and you feel vulnerable. I was also hardcore Pentecostal for many years and just loved it, except for the church and everything else, lol. So trust me when I say I COMPLETELY understand this feeling. Your response was to go back to Jesus and I understand that. But Jesus has problems that will never be resolved so I did not want to do that for myself. My solution, which was damn scary at first, was to ground with the Earth. After I became comfortable with the Earth I later decided to trust my afterlife to Mother Earth. Is Mother Earth going to do you wrong? No way! You can ask her for allies that are NOT dodgy and she will help you, as a Mother would. Another option is to instead of thinking "Where will they send me when I die?" is to rather think 'Where have I decided that I want to go?" In other words, take charge of your afterlife and pursue the place you want to be. Yeah, I spent many years flowing in ALL the gifts of the HS. I get it. You tried 'Father God' already, see how Mother Earth is different. She is comforting in a way that that I never felt in church.

That's cool that you found connection to Mother Earth. Yeah true, Earth always holds you, was here when your born, supports you while you live, and receives you when you die.

I'm done with Christ in a devotional way just too triggering for me of religious trauma, even though its the people who claim to represent him's fault and not his, just can't separate it in my mind, and instead of spending a lifetime trying to undo the damage, i reckon finding another expression of the divine is wiser, don't got much time left on this earth tbh.
But I still keep a thread of connection with Christ as a last resort nuke-like banishing (i tend to go to far with spirits at times and get hauntings or parasites... recently a death spirit that was actively fatiguing my wife and I and scaring our cats and giving us thoughts of wanting to die... but prayed to Christ, channeled Holy Spirit via tongues, and BOOM! Felt something leave the skull I anchored the spirit in and heard cats screaming outside as it happened. The house went back to its peaceful state once again).

Anyway... I was intrigued how you left the Christian gods and found your way in Mother Earth and wanted to relate with what you said... and share that I've decided to ditch Christianity altogether and explore the Tao.

 

[Nembra]

To practice esoteric Christianity you do not need to be a member of the church, however it is helpful to have a few like minded individuals in which you discuss the matters of belief and congregate with a group that will help keep you accountable. For instance Rudolph Steiner mentions self initiation into Rosicrucianism, although not ideal it just sometimes isn’t practice or possible to get initiated in the more traditional way, online sources and communities are helpful but to practice Christianity in a way to better yourself, become closer to Christ and to dive into the more occult and esoteric teachings many modern or orthodox churches are more of a hinderance to these goals as you hear the pastors understanding which to be quite frank is usually pretty rudimentary, not necessarily his fault but how some of them are trained.

Part of Christ's nature is to be the head of the Church. The only thing that Christianity can ever be is to incarnate God's Bride, also known as Queen of Heaven or, notably, Mother Church. If what you are practicing is Christianity then you are by definition a member of the Church, and this is a very minimal, pessimistic clause, since Eve, the archetype of all humanity is reborn in the Mother Church.