Poem: Emotions are maddening

[voidcat]

Title: Emotions are maddening
No time to grieve no time to stop
Everything is spinning
I've lost so much yet gone so far
The weight of the world on my shoulders
Try as hard as I can swept up in the tide
Trauma after trauma I thought I past
You doing so well they say
I feel like I've slid back have no support
No one understands

High expectations, high ambitions
Now I feel like it's all in vain
No one sees my struggles no one realizes
How hard it is to just get up and move
Do what you need to do
They just tell me to keep moving
That I have so much potential
Yet if I slip up if I fall
Everything comes down
I don't know who I am behind the mask

I don't want to go back to lose my independence
I don't want to go through mental ward to ward
I don't want to fall so hard I wish I was 6 feet under
But thoughts creep in and I'm alone
Even when surrounded

So much has happen these past few years
So much to process so little time
Everything's slowed down everything's paused
But my mind moves fast and I'm afraid
I feel I've lost the world yet came so far
Only to go backwards again.
I'll always be beneath the tide
No rest no peace just move forward
Wishing to give up but never will
I'm swept away