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Most of my practice comes either from Golden Dawn material, random stuff I read here and there, random low magic I know from local folklore and mostly revelations. I might use this thread as a magical journal later, at the moment I don't feel comfortable doing it, it feels too personal.
Here are my ideas and thoughts after 2 years of High Magic and 3 years of Alchemy.
BTW I'm not a native english speaker, even in my native language I sound austitic, enjoy.
Most of the vampiric stuff is bullshit, once I read something interesting with an inverted pentagram and AWAKE written, but I could never find it again, I might have dreamed it.
If it wasn't for the planetary hours, I still wouldn't be sure if magic is real or if it's all in your head.
Associating planets with sephiroth makes no sense. Binah is not Saturnian.
I have never read anything interesting about Wicca or Chaos Magick. I am not trying to be provocative here, it is probably a "me" issue.
I have no idea why people find Quaeria interesting. It is clearly not for me. She gives you a ritual at the beginning, but a symbolic explanation 600 pages later. It is so far removed from everything I know about how magick is supposed to work that she is either a hack or we are on 2 different and incompatible paradigms. I am trying to be provocative here, I hated it with all my guts, I can't explain why.
Astrology is misunderstood by almost everyone.
I know Jean Dubuis says "all occultists know that the trans-Saturnian planets are corpses" but I never understood what he meant, why has no one tried to include these planets in planetary magic?
I find the Nordic/Germanic runes to be utterly unusable, if you read 10 books about them, you end up with 30 definitions for each rune, 28 of which are related to fertility.
When practicing LHR, I never thought of it as elemental or planetary, to me it is about of the fall of man.
At first, I despised MPR. I thought it was a pale copy of a chakra meditation with a bad kabbalic attribution, but after a year of including it in my daily ritual nonetheless, it is probably the most powerful part now.
I am pretty sure that Abrahamelin is a fake document, and the author is not Jewish at all.
The Eucharist must be the most powerful ritual, although I have not yet reached it.
The ritual has no power, it is the means of accumulating and structuring energy. The state of mind we are in when we begin the ritual is more important than a supposed mispronunciation of Hebrew or a misattribution of angels.
Alchemy is a waste of time. 80% of alchemy books are fake, the rest are too cryptic to be understood without being initiated. I find Dubuis' Spagyrics to be the only interesting thing on the subject.
Since I started High Magic, I have started having these terrible panic attacks every time it is the hour of the moon. I do not know why.
Kabbalah is the only "religion" I understand and feel close to, and I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with that.
I am able to gather ideas from someone/something else. I can't explain it but I can categorize it.
Either it comes in the form of a random memory that I suddenly unlock and can explore.
Either it's more of a broken dialogue with someone who would only speak using memes that I know of. As if they're only able to communicate with me using though I already have expressed. It's like talking to someone on Discord who only responds with custom emojis from the server and no words.
Maybe I found a way to purposely induce hallucinations on myself.
Here are my ideas and thoughts after 2 years of High Magic and 3 years of Alchemy.
BTW I'm not a native english speaker, even in my native language I sound austitic, enjoy.
Most of the vampiric stuff is bullshit, once I read something interesting with an inverted pentagram and AWAKE written, but I could never find it again, I might have dreamed it.
If it wasn't for the planetary hours, I still wouldn't be sure if magic is real or if it's all in your head.
Associating planets with sephiroth makes no sense. Binah is not Saturnian.
I have never read anything interesting about Wicca or Chaos Magick. I am not trying to be provocative here, it is probably a "me" issue.
I have no idea why people find Quaeria interesting. It is clearly not for me. She gives you a ritual at the beginning, but a symbolic explanation 600 pages later. It is so far removed from everything I know about how magick is supposed to work that she is either a hack or we are on 2 different and incompatible paradigms. I am trying to be provocative here, I hated it with all my guts, I can't explain why.
Astrology is misunderstood by almost everyone.
I know Jean Dubuis says "all occultists know that the trans-Saturnian planets are corpses" but I never understood what he meant, why has no one tried to include these planets in planetary magic?
I find the Nordic/Germanic runes to be utterly unusable, if you read 10 books about them, you end up with 30 definitions for each rune, 28 of which are related to fertility.
When practicing LHR, I never thought of it as elemental or planetary, to me it is about of the fall of man.
At first, I despised MPR. I thought it was a pale copy of a chakra meditation with a bad kabbalic attribution, but after a year of including it in my daily ritual nonetheless, it is probably the most powerful part now.
I am pretty sure that Abrahamelin is a fake document, and the author is not Jewish at all.
The Eucharist must be the most powerful ritual, although I have not yet reached it.
The ritual has no power, it is the means of accumulating and structuring energy. The state of mind we are in when we begin the ritual is more important than a supposed mispronunciation of Hebrew or a misattribution of angels.
Alchemy is a waste of time. 80% of alchemy books are fake, the rest are too cryptic to be understood without being initiated. I find Dubuis' Spagyrics to be the only interesting thing on the subject.
Since I started High Magic, I have started having these terrible panic attacks every time it is the hour of the moon. I do not know why.
Kabbalah is the only "religion" I understand and feel close to, and I'm not sure if I'm comfortable with that.
I am able to gather ideas from someone/something else. I can't explain it but I can categorize it.
Either it comes in the form of a random memory that I suddenly unlock and can explore.
Either it's more of a broken dialogue with someone who would only speak using memes that I know of. As if they're only able to communicate with me using though I already have expressed. It's like talking to someone on Discord who only responds with custom emojis from the server and no words.
Maybe I found a way to purposely induce hallucinations on myself.