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I don't know if this is the right place to post but I got utterly fucked by it. I woke up after getting home from an overnight shift to an email saying my employment was terminated. So far I don't have any opinions/commentary other than "yeah, damn." and that I should've expected something like this to happen if I had bothered to learn astrology properly before me and everyone I know lost their jobs LOL.
I felt it already three days before the fact and it lit up my entire Nativity with the South Node conjunct Pluto in Virgo. By Monday I hit escape velocity, hanging on to the narrative arc for dear life with the NN in my ninth house being held down by Saturn on one side and Chiron/Vesta on my Mc on the other. Can you say, tripping balls? I was in full-on ekstasis. By Monday I was writing pretty much non-stop, not sleeping, not eating, and staying well away from WF because it was ground zero and acting like a hypersigil with an attitude. For me the whole eclipse portal was about my relation to magick anyway and how I translate that in terms of creative expression in my day to day life. Naturally, with Pluto on the South Node it was presented to me as a life review, and I ended up entering the Cross of Lorraine as though it were a sigil/mandala, bringing not only full on visuals and fantasy material into consensus reality (like a hearse doing a really weird-ass U-turn in front of my house) but deep healing and integration throughout. Altogether, a singularly beautiful, intimate experience that required a mother-load of ballast to keep me from blowing a gasket.
Do you mean on the big scale , like the new war , or on the local scale like the horrific local murder that has thrown the whole area into wobbly emotive chaos ?
I have no hope left. Life had a deal with me that there would be no more hoping. Then it tricked me again. So I can no longer hope for anything anymore. Maybe try to change the future for the better is all I have to live for and if I can't then atleast I tried.
But there is no hope within my bones.
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There is no hope and I wish I could fully abandon all of my hope because while there is none in my bones. The emotional side of my brain will always carry some. But there is no hope.
There is no such thing as perfection. There is even no reaching it because there is no such thing.
There is none of that and the sooner I let go of hope that I would get better or that people would get nicer my world became brighter.
They probably won't. There is no hope. There is no saving and there is nothing.
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Because I let go of expectations and I could laugh. Yeah people will be people. Oh well. Move on I guess. Because there is no hope.
I've got a new project invitation, a possible new contract with an another multibillionaire company, I've also got the price of two books I planned to spend on around 170$ dollar, so I basically got them for free -perfect, because these are connected to the spirit I'm bonding with- and some good news for future plans (fence, yard, roof) on the new two floor house I bought a couple of months ago. It was a lively day.
Do I think it has to do anything with the eclipse?
Not really. But the timing was great.
2026 is, just as I expected, continue being a very succesful, hopeful and promising year, and I'm really grateful for it. I'm sure it has to do something with my own way of living, thinking and improvements. I continue focusing on my self-development, self-control, pampering my spiritual life I've been neglecting, and enjoy what life has to offer, be it a 'gift' or a 'challenge'.
Occultists are very Saturnian, but that is also wisdom! I hope an answer comes soon
Productive! I don't think I felt any personal consequences of the astral weather, perhaps because I was already winding up protection for a rite, but a storm did topple the palm tree in the area. Very funny in reflection with the 13th Lunar Mansion's proficiency for the freeing of captives. Poor tree barely had room for roots.
I leveraged the vibez for a dissolving working. It's been very fun trying to experiment with a form of geomantic-inspired niranj. The Arabic magic that made it to the West was a very learned, astral form, but it's been inspiring to see the bare-bones approach of many indigenous du'a-nevis practices in Iran. Managing to turn household simples--rosewater, ball point pen, paper--into powerful workings had that tinge of witchy practicality I adore. This attempt implemented garlic skin, water from a deep pit, and a paper rectangle.
A big part of the change was also to interrogate for what makes a powerful spell. Is it the preciousness of the ingredients? Skill in construction?
I'm curious what other people think are the key differences between a potent and a pathetic performance.
Occultists are very Saturnian, but that is also wisdom! I hope an answer comes soon
Productive! I don't think I felt any personal consequences of the astral weather, perhaps because I was already winding up protection for a rite, but a storm did topple the palm tree in the area. Very funny in reflection with the 13th Lunar Mansion's proficiency for the freeing of captives. Poor tree barely had room for roots.
I leveraged the vibez for a dissolving working. It's been very fun trying to experiment with a form of geomantic-inspired niranj. The Arabic magic that made it to the West was a very learned, astral form, but it's been inspiring to see the bare-bones approach of many indigenous du'a-nevis practices in Iran. Managing to turn household simples--rosewater, ball point pen, paper--into powerful workings had that tinge of witchy practicality I adore. This attempt implemented garlic skin, water from a deep pit, and a paper rectangle.
A big part of the change was also to interrogate for what makes a powerful spell. Is it the preciousness of the ingredients? Skill in construction?
I'm curious what other people think are the key differences between a potent and a pathetic performance.
I managed to time a ritual perfectly to the astrology this time, with a little back and forth in analyzing my chart and the constellations at play and my goals I managed to go to a place in nature where it's okay to burn stuff and put the ashes in a stream for letting go of some things exactly on the peak of the blood moon eclipse. This also made perfect sense as the water symbolism was stronger than only the fire one.
After that I played a little Tarzan and had fun jumping and climbing around tin the trees topless in the sun like a child
Established a set of rules that also fit the constellations and my goals after that - It feels like a big synchronicity that keeping this challenge contract with myself for 41 days (the time frame to change behavior in neuroscience) fits the timing perfectly.
04 march + 41 days = 14. of the 4th month April.
I have no hope left. Life had a deal with me that there would be no more hoping. Then it tricked me again. So I can no longer hope for anything anymore. Maybe try to change the future for the better is all I have to live for and if I can't then atleast I tried.
But there is no hope within my bones.
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There is no hope and I wish I could fully abandon all of my hope because while there is none in my bones. The emotional side of my brain will always carry some. But there is no hope.
There is no such thing as perfection. There is even no reaching it because there is no such thing.
There is none of that and the sooner I let go of hope that I would get better or that people would get nicer my world became brighter.
They probably won't. There is no hope. There is no saving and there is nothing.
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Because I let go of expectations and I could laugh. Yeah people will be people. Oh well. Move on I guess. Because there is no hope.
I won't dare to say I grasp your circumstances, but for me at least (things weren't good for me and we all see apocalyptic signs on the horizon) the game of being alive is an invitation to somehow create belief - hope implies doubt anyways - so having no hope is maybe just a lack of illusion!
So if you gaslight yourself (tbh much of the big religion and magick mumbo jumbo is just that but very effective none the less) YOU decide what your reality will be. I know how delusional that sounds cause it is - and that isn't a bad thing - it's just what we all have to do not to end up making things worse for ourselves than they already must be.
I believe in you & I urge you to gaslight yourself and try to go full on delusional mode with mantras and or subliminals and showing yourself that things can work for you, like giving yourself proof of progress with laughable little challenges that you manage so easily that your sense of accomplishment can not do differently but to make you smirk (maybe even smile!)
You matter immensely, just like each one of us, especially in this forum we have a rare collection of specimen!
There is just one choice we all have to make - the pain of regret or the pain of trying. Why not try then?
As I said, I do not know your circumstances and am maybe even rude to talk to you in this way not understanding what is going on. But I know that telling yourself a story might be a way to provide yourself with the fire you need to keep moving.
It never was about winning or reaching the ideal - it's just about not quitting. The more often you roll the dice, the more chances you have to have a higher number. Having low scores is inevitable.
There are many sources here that may help you find exactly the right non-human teacher or helper you may want or need, if you do not have it already. I'm a very lone wolf type of being at the moment and I will soon go to places like a climbing hall or other places more, nature always helped me clear my mind.
I'm currently reading Frater Achers Daimon Trilogy, maybe getting in touch with your Higher self/ Daimon/ Holy Guradian Angel might just be the thing to look into for you.
I managed to time a ritual perfectly to the astrology this time, with a little back and forth in analyzing my chart and the constellations at play and my goals I managed to go to a place in nature where it's okay to burn stuff and put the ashes in a stream for letting go of some things exactly on the peak of the blood moon eclipse. This also made perfect sense as the water symbolism was stronger than only the fire one.
After that I played a little Tarzan and had fun jumping and climbing around tin the trees topless in the sun like a child
Established a set of rules that also fit the constellations and my goals after that - It feels like a big synchronicity that keeping this challenge contract with myself for 41 days (the time frame to change behavior in neuroscience) fits the timing perfectly.
04 march + 41 days = 14. of the 4th month April.
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I won't dare to say I grasp your circumstances, but for me at least (things weren't good for me and we all see apocalyptic signs on the horizon) the game of being alive is an invitation to somehow create belief - hope implies doubt anyways - so having no hope is maybe just a lack of illusion!
So if you gaslight yourself (tbh much of the big religion and magick mumbo jumbo is just that but very effective none the less) YOU decide what your reality will be. I know how delusional that sounds cause it is - and that isn't a bad thing - it's just what we all have to do not to end up making things worse for ourselves than they already must be.
I believe in you & I urge you to gaslight yourself and try to go full on delusional mode with mantras and or subliminals and showing yourself that things can work for you, like giving yourself proof of progress with laughable little challenges that you manage so easily that your sense of accomplishment can not do differently but to make you smirk (maybe even smile!)
You matter immensely, just like each one of us, especially in this forum we have a rare collection of specimen!
There is just one choice we all have to make - the pain of regret or the pain of trying. Why not try then?
As I said, I do not know your circumstances and am maybe even rude to talk to you in this way not understanding what is going on. But I know that telling yourself a story might be a way to provide yourself with the fire you need to keep moving.
It never was about winning or reaching the ideal - it's just about not quitting. The more often you roll the dice, the more chances you have to have a higher number. Having low scores is inevitable.
There are many sources here that may help you find exactly the right non-human teacher or helper you may want or need, if you do not have it already. I'm a very lone wolf type of being at the moment and I will soon go to places like a climbing hall or other places more, nature always helped me clear my mind.
I'm currently reading Frater Achers Daimon Trilogy, maybe getting in touch with your Higher self/ Daimon/ Holy Guradian Angel might just be the thing to look into for you.
Thank you. I might try that but right now I just processed a lot of emotions and grief. I needed some time to myself and to admit that. I feel better now thankfully but I basically lost multiple communities that I had been a part of for a while.
I also lost the last remnants and connecting piece I had to someone I cared about. All in multiple rows. I needed time and I thankfully got time.
Some pain I just got to process and there's no immediate cure for.
When I wrote that I also forgot to eat so was probably the low blood sugar talking. So I'm doing better I just needed time and might contact those when I have more energy and a goal but I'm fine right now.
