Journal Tuat suayutlyuk

[Suayakoat]

I'm starting this thread in order to summarize literally thousands of hours of experience of diving deep into my subconsciousness in order to discover the truth about myself but in the process of discovering the truth about everything else, too. This thread will primarily focus on my memories from a previous lifetimes as part of a nation called the Tuatauan and their history from a primitive tribe inhabiting inhospitable part of a larger continent called the Tradarak through the development of an unique culture to survive their inhospitable environment, their enslavement by a neighboring civilization for thousands of years, the eventual defeat of that civilization after a rebellion and the establishment of the Tuatauan civilization called the Tiahuanopan all the way to the failed attempt at Theogenesis made by the Tuatauans. Yeah, I know posting all of this like this at the beginning of the thread makes little sense at all, doesn't it, but, please, wait and follow the entire thread for information about the history and experience of an entire civilization with a completely different polarity than the one of this civilization-the modern industrial civilization that we currently inhabit and make comparisons which would enlighten you as to what is possible if you inverse the polarity of society.

By polarity of society I mean the ratio of people choosing whether their souls want to merge with the Source or become Sources themselves. Our current civilization has quite strong right polarity-it means most of its members want to find their way back to the Source and merge with it. Which is completely fine since the entire point of free will is to make it possible to choose whether you want to be a part of this Source which nourishes these particular plans (of Universes founded on the eternal fight between Good and Evil) or do you wish to become a new Source accepting a new plan for Universe/s in the process. This civilization wants to direct the souls of its inhabitants back to the Source, the Tiahuanopan was build on different foundations. It was a left polarity civilization meaning its goal was to elevate the spirits of its inhabitants to the ability to choose a plan for themselves and leave this existence by becoming Sources on their own instead of merging with the current one. This dichotomy if what I would like to explore throughout this thread. I think it's about time to unveil long standing lies and manipulations about the two paths that have permeated the history of this civilization and let the truth about the left path free no matter the disapproval from the spirits guarding this civilization that it will cause. And what better way will there be for that than you hearing the history of the Tuatauan people-a truly left path followers?

However, before continuing I wish to issue a WARNING-the history of the Tuatauan is full of bloodshed and practices some of you may find obscene. It's far from a direct path to perfection. This is why I would advice strong reader's discretion and will warn you that imitating them is a very dangerous enterprise. The point of this thread is to show you what a left civilization looks like but also to warn you about the potential perils of that path, too. In the end there is no perfect path and no matter your intentions you must be proven by fire to enjoy the fruits of any path you choose. That will be the essence of this story, too. Therefore, proceed with care and use the knowledge you would gain from reading these stories carefully.

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Before I start my story I would like to state the circumstances that lead me into participating into the karmic path I declare the Tuatauans to be. Before I was sent to the Tradarak I was on a very different spiritual path. First, I remember getting separated from my true and only eternal love (yes I believe I have such a soul-the one destined to me) and I had a very hard time coping with that separation. I got closed off to myself. I stopped enjoying life no matter what pleasures it could offer me. I started going on a very steep and selfless path toward liberation. The fact I was in a very restrictive civilization that didn't allow for much personal freedom and selfishness also wasn't helping. I closed off myself and decided to take the right path, that means the path that leads to the unification with the Source. I blamed the whole Universe for not being able to give me even one thing I could desire. Other thing that wasn't helping was the fact I had too many female incarnations, far outnumbering my male ones. I don't remember much of the details of my bodies before I ended up among the Tuatauans but I think I wasn't even a human back then. But there were clearly two genders and I was predominantly the female one. That separation pain lead me to follow a very steep path towards the Source onto which I shed all material pleasures and grew my spirit in preparation to the final merger.

But there was something missing in me that whole time. My journey, although heavily approved by the collective I was part of, wasn't one of a personal volition but rather quite a forced one both by myself and others since I felt the Universe wasn't giving me any other options. My spirit was ready for the merger but my mind was blind. It didn't know where to go, neither what to want. I was in a very precarious situation where my powers and knowledge were increasing but it was for the sake of my free will and self-worth. And in these precise circumstances I lived through a lifetime, I think again a female incarnation, when I did everything "by the book"-an entire lifetime devoid of any desire, of any longings, of any actions, just a blind obedience to the collective and no personal input whatsoever. The only thought I had for that entire lifetime was-"I wanna reach the Source.". After I left my mortal body in that lifetime I remember getting blind about all the other afterlives I could have-getting blind about both the pleasures and the pains of this form of existence, of the positive and negative actions, of all the karma one soul could gain, even of Good and Evil. My soul had one goal and one goal only-to get back to the Source. And I did it.

After that lifetime I managed to climb ever higher and higher and faster and faster far further than anything before or after. My spirit, my essence, my at (as it is called in the language of the Tuatauans) was ready to give up on its existence altogether. There was nothing any more I could desire. Only peace, only calmness, only oneness with the eternity. And then I reached it-higher and higher beyond anything imagination could imagine, thought could think of and experience experience an infinite bright light was upon me. I feel I crossed all the worlds, all the paths and all the existences desire could desire to reach that infinite sea of light. I started to disappear. My only though, however, was:
-There is nothing you can give me that I could like.

Therefore, it was best for me to just vanish into that Light. To disappear forever. If possible, without a trace. That was the most logical conclusion my soul had reached after the tribulations I was through. I challenged the entire Universe, God himself to give me something I could desire, or just let me vanish into the Infinite. And then I felt it...

I was able to stand before the Light in all its shining, in all its glory, in all of its infinite embrace and I wasn't sinking any more...I was...staring straight into the infinite ocean of light unable to continue any further my Soul ready to merge but my consciousness longing for something even this infinite light couldn't give me.

Than I heard the words:
-Then, become a Tuatauan.

I immediately started falling straight down the path I came from going further and further away from that infinite light and returning to the material world. I was onto a new mission further and further away from the worlds I came from and into a completely new experience, into something that could give me what even the infinite Light of all creation couldn't...

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My journey didn't start with the beginning of the history of the Tuatauans. There were probably several thousands of years between the moment Tuatauans appeared and the moment I came through. They inhabited the most southern tip of the continent called Tradarak which formed a peninsular with roughly triangular shape. This peninsular consisted of an eastern edge where a tall and wide mountain range towered above a hilly central region and a plane lowering to the west. This is the original land of the Tuatuans-a small peninsular at the southernmost tip of a much larger continent where this story begins. This was the stage of the early history of the people of Tiatauan and also the cradle of this civilization. If you ask me where this land and the continent of the Tradarak is located I can't answer, even today. I believe it was on the planet Earth but it may well not be that Earth we are living in. Let me explain.

Imagine the Universe is infinite. Then imagine that each circumstance that may play out, each arrangement of events that doesn't contradict itself, does plays out. But in a different place within this infinite Universe, a place that may be infinitely far away from any other place where similar events are playing out. Now imagine that the soul could travel with infinite speed after death and before birth. Actually, the properer way is to say the soul could be carried with infinite speed among those different versions of the same place. Then can the soul really recognize in which version of this place it is in, under what circumstances it operates, what is the plan it is operating under?

The idea is there are many versions of anything in an infinite Universe, however, each of them is slightly different. The soul could travel almost instantaneously among them after death and before birth, therefore, different "plans" can be played at places that are essentially one and the same bar minimal differences. It's these differences that grow potentially and proportionally the further into the infinite one goes stretching the limits of what is possible. Now having that perspective in mind the version of Earth where the Tradarak happens to be could be the same general "plan" as this Earth is, however, not the same planet and not the same stellar configuration as this particular planet. In order to not confuse you any more I will just pretend that this is another planet far far away, infinitely far away actually, which just happens to have similar evolution as Earth-similar plants, animals and climate and similar people as this planet but it has slightly different geography and history.

However, I believe that this planet and our Earth are fundamentally interlinked with one another as different versions of the same thing just too far apart from each other. Therefore, the same, or closely shared, groups of souls inhabit them. There come the similarities between them. I haven't moved away from Earth, I just landed on a different version of it. And you would see what I mean if you manage to wait till the end of my story since it would take quite a long time to explain you what had actually happened on that planet in general and the Tradarak in particular. But long story short that planet is no more-gone by our fault. We did something we weren't supposed to do and the planet suffered a major cataclysm. And that is why I'm now traveling among various versions of it in search of the pieces of karma that will help me finally find my place in the great order of things so I could complete the journey I started when I refused that light so long ago. But that's another story....

 

[Suayakoat]

So, as I was saying the history of the Tuatauan began in the peninsula on the southernmost tip of the Tradarak some millennia before I landed there. In that time this area was covered with lush green forests full of game of different sorts, including species no longer present on our Earth. The climate was tropical and humid and the rainforests supported small groups of hunter-gatherers of just a few families. That's how the Tuatauans started-as these small tribes hunting game in the tropical forests of the Tradarak which had the bare minimum of knowledge necessary to survive and were speaking primitive languages not far removed from the animal tongues. This lifestyle continued for millennia before groups of advanced souls, like mine, landed there and shaped many generations of people into a culture of primitive tribes knowing only stone tools, hunting tactics and forest spirits. In that time frame the Tuatauan lacked any sort of advanced knowledge and were dependent only on what the forests could provide.

During that time the particular look of a Tuatauan was formed. It was tall humans (I mean species Homo sapiens-completely genetically compatible with the humans of this Earth) with brightly yellow skin-the color of sunlight-and black hair and brown eyes. Facial hair was limited to non-existent and the arms and legs were a little bit longer compared to the humans inhabiting this planet nowadays as proportions of the body. These bodies were ideally suited for tropical climates and gave the first Tuatauans perfect adaptations to the bright sunshine that illuminated that part of our world.

However, fate wasn't as generous to these first settlers as to make this frivolous period of history last long. After millennia of primitive existence as forest dwellers that which later was destined to become the Tuatauans were forced to face a major disaster-one that will change their history forever. Gradually but surely the climate began to dry up. Rainfall started to dwindle and the forests started to disappear-first into limited groups of trees around ravines, springs, rivers and all other kinds of sources of water, then into tiny green patches of trees with hardened barks and spikes mixed up with similar looking bushes spread throughout the land and finally into limited grouping of predominantly such bushes mixed up with singular trees around ever so fewer sources of water. Of course, the land didn't dried up overnight and there was plenty of time to prepare for what was coming but a pattern emerged-rain stopped for a few months of the year and concentrated in a period just about a third, and later-the forth of the year when the soil was wet enough to support lush vegetation but no more forests and then dried up for the rest of the year barely supporting dry grass and thorny bush. This is the climate that actually defined the Tuatauan as people and took over the land for the rest of the history I'm about to tell.

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When the forests started dying out and the droughts began to appear the people inhabiting that southernmost peninsular faced an impossible dilemma. How could they feed and gain enough resources to sustain themselves with that new climate without breaking the social bonds that created the small groups of hunter gatherers they were used to live in? It was impossible to continue living on in the old ways as the game was getting rarer and rarer and all the food sources were becoming unsustainable. There was the need to store food for the dry season and to inhabit more permanent settlement along the sources of water. But as the climate was getting dryer and dryer less of those permanent sources of water became available. That caused a great upheaval among the nomadic groups which now needed to settle around sources of water and defend them. By any means necessary. That defense became the source of great struggle and forced the society to change inadvertently.

While before small groups of several families which weren't associated with any particular location and went where the game was best were the norm after the droughts and the division of the year into wet and dry seasons began these groups were forced to settle down around rivers, lakes or springs and build permanent encampments there as well as to store food for the dry season. The problem was that the rain was getting scarcer and scarcer and as the centuries passed almost all rivers dried up for the dry season and the permanent lakes disappeared. Only some springs that required maintenance during the drought remained and all the large game died out. In these circumstances the fight for the few remaining springs intensified and became a cruel battle for survival of the most well organized among the groups. Ad that caused a great split among the people inhabiting those lands.

During the transition from forests to semi-deserts two survival tactics became prominent. Either the strongest males started to dominate larger groups comprised of several of the tribes consisting of several families that were the norm during the hunter gatherers times, or a more egalitarian groups formed where the people shared food and water and sticked together to defend from raids organized by the first sort of groups or roaming groups of males always trying to conquer new sources of water and establish there their groups. In the male dominated groups strict hierarchies and compulsion to grab and secure the food and the water and the women by the strongest coalitions of males dominated. Conflicts there abundant and quite bloody as survival went only to the strongest males. In the groups that shared resources however a more egalitarian system took over where the females were the ones to determine who will get the scarce food and water and the males allowed the women to take decisions as to who they will take as husbands on their own. The drive for the second type of groups was collective defense and decision making lead by assemblies where the women held as much decision power as the males while those strongest males which could enslave all the other (as was happening in the first kind of groups) were persecuted out of the group or forced to obey their rules and give up power. For quite a long time as the soil was drying and the water was getting scarcer those two systems existed in parallel with some of the sources of water getting controlled by groups of the first kind and others by groups of the second. But the inevitable drying of the land forced those two systems into a conflict.

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As the dry seasons kept getting longer and longer and the rainfall ever scarcer the two kinds of systems were competing for ever decreasing number of sources of water and the food associated with them. That caused constant raids primarily by men coming from the groups lead by the dominant males into the more egalitarian groups. It was always easier to gather up men hungry for loot and status and organize all male groups, send them to conquer the nearby egalitarian groups which were being perceived as the weaker one and try to capture their water. However, aware of these tactics and the disadvantage in strength they were facing the more egalitarian groups started counting more on numbers while the ones dominated by the males on the individual strength of their members. This is how a split happened at all levels early in the history of the civilization of that will later grow into the Tuatauans. Smaller but strictly hierarchical male dominated groups started taking over not so prominent (and permanent) sources of water where the stiff competition for food and water (and later-females) made only the strongest ones to survive and caused constant build up of warriors able to organize raids into the larger but weaker on average groups of more egalitarian structure. It didn't helped that the second kind of groups started to frequently banish the most aggressive and strongest of the males fearing their dominance and those males were going straight into the smaller but well organized and dangerous male dominated groups. Aware of the disposition that was creating in the egalitarian groups, which were constantly loosing strong and aggressive males to the male dominated groups, the females there started to employ new strategy to hold the strongest males near enough to protect the groups. They started allowing them access to more than one female thus creating the conditions for those males to stay and protect, rather than leave and raid, the more egalitarian groups. But the backbone of the strength of those more egalitarian groups remained the alliance between the not-so-dominant males and the females which together outnumbered the male dominated groups by several times. Thus, when a raid was organized on them the more egalitarian groups were forced to soak up heavy loses and they couldn't always sustain them and many of them were subjugated and annihilated by raids of smaller but more vicious and aggressive male groups.

When a raid was successful the dominant males would usually kill all the adult and elderly males of the subjugated group, take over the women and force them to breed with the strongest ones among them. Those who refused will be killed, too and the children would be forced to grow up fighting among each other for status for the boys and becoming submissive to the strongest males for the girls. These were the laws of strength that the new climate was forcing and those who couldn't face them ended up dead. However, this social structure had a major flaw-the slots for the strongest men who had access to all the food and water (and the females) were far too few for all the males and live under them was not so far away from true slavery. This is why the weaker males started to search for and join the more egalitarian groups where they would be treated better and have more of a chance to have a spouse. This is why I told you the people split into two and these twos ended up hating and fighting each other constantly. Strong and aggressive males were constantly trying to escape the more egalitarian groups so they could join or establish small but strong and vicious male dominated groups while weaker men from these very same groups were constantly trying to escape them and join the more egalitarian groups for being treated better there. While the droughts didn't manage to fully envelop the lands there was place for both of those kinds of organization and the southernmost tip of the Tradarak was a mesh of both of them with some regions dominated by the males and others by the more egalitarian groups. But the constant march towards ever dryer and dryer climate forced an increasing number of confrontations that made the further existence together of these separate systems impossible.

 

[Suayakoat]

As a rule of thumb the richer and wetter more fertile sources of water were inhabited by the more egalitarian groups since they allowed for more people to live in peace together. Under their structure food and water were more evenly distributed which allowed for feeding more people but with more meager rations. This was an extra reason why everyone in the group was weak-the food and water needed to sustain the weaker members like women, children and elderly prevented these groups from properly feeding their strongest members. Yes, the group had more members per calorie of food and there was genuine peace and cooperation within it but that came at the cost of strength. The problem was that the food and water were constantly getting scarcer and scarcer and there came a moment when the most kind-hearted realized the system was unsustainable. When the food and water became very limited during the dry season there was simply not enough resources for everyone to get by. The strongest males were also perceived to be right to deserve more of the meager supplies in order to keep strong enough to actually defend the group. Facing these conditions the women, who were becoming the domineering voices inside those groups decided that hard choices need to be taken nevertheless no matter how much pity they had for the weaker members. This is when the women thinking took a darker turn. Realizing how impossible it was to feed everyone and how damaging for the whole group would be to deny food and water to the strongest men in order to sustain the most vulnerable some women, actually those who were striving to take control over the entire group, decided to become executioners of the weakest members of these groups. It wasn't a decision they enjoyed but it was one that needed to be done, for the best of the entire group. Thus, when the dry season got into its most dangerous and harshest part some of the women took weapons and started to cull the groups-to cull especially the oldest and the weakest. That practice spread throughout the lands and became a duty of the domineering females. And that is how the route to the real social organization of the Tuatauans came into existence.

A simple rule got established when the mothers became the executioners, too-only the strong shall survive. The groups were to be purged out of their weakest members so there could be enough food and water for the rest. Thus, all groups started to react to the long droughts by purging their members and promoting the survival of the fittest. The difference was that in one kind of groups the males were the ones who decided who will live and who will die, while in the other kinds of groups that was the job of the females. But the climate kept getting dryer and dryer and the few remaining constant sources of water got to be an arena for the battle between those two strategies. Initially killing the weak was the job of the strongest females but as the conditions for life worsened killing the elderly and the weakest wasn't enough to trim the groups enough. Then a new element was taken from the cruel laws of the male dominated groups-when the droughts came and the food and water got scarce battles to the death would be organized among the remaining members of the group. The winners would get the remaining food and water while the losers would pay with their lives. This is how ritualistic murder came to these groups and it was there to stay well into the history of the Tuatauan.

Now both kinds of groups were killing their weaker members. But in the male dominated one the reason wasn't always to save up resources but rather to keep the hierarchy going and to usurp whatever the dominant ones wanted to control. Unlike them in the female dominated groups the goal of the murders was always to save enough for those who would better use it and the traditions there were of respect and worship of the sacrifice of some for the benefit of all. There initially only men fought to trim the group down to only the strongest ones and also the ones who were more suitable to protect the group from raids. However, men started complaining that it wasn't fair for them only to fight and for the women to always survive to be courted by the strongest survivors. This is why eventually, as the droughts got harsher the women started fighting as well. The weaker ones died and their children were put in jeopardy. The fights among the women actually grew so intense that they were overshadowing even the ones among the men. In this new system everyone fought and all were subject to constant danger for themselves and their children if they lost. The fate of the children proved out to be the most powerful motivator for the females who were willing to give it all to guarantee the survival of their progeny and this is how a new system of social bonding appeared. The groups where everyone fought and the women determined who will get what became known as trauruts and they became the most basic social structure of the Tuatauans. Actually, the Tuatauans were born out of the trauruts and they came to stay (in one form or another) throughout their history.

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Somewhere around that time-the birth of the trauruts-I came to the Tradarak as well. As I said before my spirit was thrown away by that blinding Light straight into the social structure of the Tuatauans just as the trauruts were forming. The climate wasn't as harsh as it would eventually get but it was harsh enough for yet another gruesome practice to start taking place-the bodies of the losers of the fights to death during the heights of the dry season were to become being "utilized" for the needs of the whole traurut. It meant that ones the losers died their bodies would be cut and anyone thirsty (which included especially the children and the young) would drink their blood and other juices to quench (even a little bit) their thirst. The reality of that practice was to save up as much moisture as possible making the final sacrifice in the name of the traurut-giving up your last drop of moisture in the name of continuing the life of the whole. But that practice had severe mental effects on all. Before the bodies were buried and their spirits let to rest in peace even after a fight to the death. But after that practice was introduced all that remained out of the bodies were dried out remains that the heat of the sun turned into nothing but crispy flash and bones. They were to be discarded at the dry wilderness that was forming around the sources of water where the trauruts lived and birds and insects were to take care of them until nothing but bones remained. Bones left in the wilderness-that was the final fate of anyone in the trauruts. This ending cause a major shift in the religion of what was to become the Tuatauans. While before there was genuine belief in the life after death as a route of the Soul to a better place now the only faith remaining was the duty to the traurut. Any selfishness and personal desires were to be surrendered so that the traurut could continue to live on. That lead to a massive outflow of people, especially men, from the newly forming trauruts to join the much more aggressive and unequal groups dominated by strong men but where at least, they felt, there was some amount of decency when it came to the burials of the death and personal desires weren't banned. But the trauruts and their gruesome practices managed to do the one thing they were introduced for-to strengthen the weaker female dominated groups and as the runaways soon realized now the tables have turned.

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The trauruts also introduced new divides among their members and practices (especially when it came to breeding) that turned the initially egalitarian groups into stiff competition tribes where survival became as contested as in the male dominated ones. With the beginning of the trimmings and the ritual fights to the death a new culture was born-the survivors were to honor the fallen by taking responsibility for the things they couldn't when they were alive-especially their children and close relatives. Thus, a very contradictory system was formed-one one hand nobody was spared from participating in the fights to the death-men with men and women with women, but on the other hand by killing your opponent you were burdening yourself with all of their responsibilities thus actually the bond between you became even stronger. And when this was widened to include all the members of the traurut it made for an indestructible whole. Or to be more precise-either the traurut fought as one or it died as one. The constant battles and the trimming of friends and family strengthened the members of the traurut and the dead were to be honored by it becoming an unstoppable force where everyone fought to the death. As one. When a group of people went through so much suffering to trim down to a traurut of its fittest members it turned out even the strongest bands of raiding men couldn't brake it. And the reason wasn't the fact the men (and women) left in the traurut were stronger than the raiding parties but rather the fact they fought as one to honor those who gave up their lives so that the rest could live!

Thus, little by little and generation by generation the initially weaker egalitarian groups dominated by women turned into formidable fighting units and absorbed ever more of the cruelty and aggressiveness that the male dominated groups were known for. But they did it in an entirely different ways than them. While in the male dominated groups hierarchies grew naturally from the strength of the strongest coalitions and battles for food and water (and females) were a group undertaking in the traurut trimming down the population and sacrifices were highly ritualistic and no wide scale battles were allowed. That was an internal process almost like a purification where the strong may have been eliminated the weaker but they were doing so with respect and dignity and taking over the responsibilities of the dead. The hierarchies inside the trauruts were driven by these mutual respect and understanding feelings much more than the pure disparity in strength and it wasn't uncommon for even physically weaker members of the traurut (for example, women) to have status higher than their physical attributes would grant them but their internal qualities would compensate for that. It was also true that the trauruts remained more numerous than the men in the groups where they dominated but as time passed the quality of the fighters the trauruts could master increased while the male dominated groups essentially remained with the same quality fighters they had before. Thus, in the end the trauruts were capable of churning out more and better fighters than the egalitarian groups could ever had been able to before and these fighters were much better coordinated, zealous and numerous than what the male dominated groups could master. This is how the trauruts turned around the conflicts between the two main groups inhabiting the southernmost tip of the Tradarak. While before the egalitarian female-lead groups were often prey to the stronger and more aggressive male dominated groups after their transformation into trauruts the reverse happened-now the trauruts held the upper hand over the male raiding parties and the stage was preparing for something far bigger-the ability of the trauruts to actually take the fight to the male dominated groups themselves. But before that one more major shift was to happpen...

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The trauruts had an internal problem. Despite being obviously superior form of social organization (for the conditions of the southernmost tip of the Tradarak) there was a major handicap with them that required a trade-off solution. The problem was that men (and to a lesser extent women) were dying at a quite a staggering rate and that made lasting pairing virtually impossible. Back in the days of the lush green forest before the droughts and before the separation into the male dominated and the more egalitarian groups when the yellow-skinned people of the southernmost tip of the Tradarak lived in small groups of a few families the dominant structure within those groups was the family. There would be a pairing between a man and a woman and they will take over the entire group-the man over the men and the woman over the other women. Thus everyone in this domineering family would have their responsibilities and their domains of power. The system was fair and square. The most capable man was supposed to pair with most capable woman for the benefit of all. But as the droughts started to progress and the land became barren and, of course, the people split into male and female dominated groups that system was put under a lot of stress. The male dominated groups totally abolished it with it being replaced by "The winner takes it all." rule. There the most successful of the men were permitted to be promiscuous and keep harems of several females under what was essentially sexual slavery while the rest of the men could barely find a spouse. In the female dominated groups there was a push to keep that custom going as late as possible but the conditions of the land made it unsustainable there as well.

Initially, the female dominated groups kept the rule of the dominant couple with the man ruling over the men and the woman-over the women but as the drain of younger, stronger and more aggressive men began to flow into the male dominated groups making them stronger and more dangerous while weakening the female dominated groups some women were quick to realize the situation was unsustainable and that they will be facing the wrath of their own sons if solution wasn't provided. Then, some women started providing more than one partner for the strongest men in an effort to keep them within the group. This custom wasn't viewed positively initially but it worked, temporarily, and the groups which adopted it fared better than the rest of the female dominated groups. As the first culling of the weak started to happen as the soil became ever drier and drier this custom spread throughout the female dominated groups. But some of the women realized that keeping the strongest and most aggressive men around in this way was putting the fate of the entire group in jeopardy. Ultimately these men could turn on the weaker men and the women and force the female dominated egalitarian groups to turn into male dominated ones not so different than the ones they were fighting with. This is why these women started to support the old structure of a "ruling couple" where the entire group was commanded by a couple of domineering man and a woman. But these more egalitarian groups had grown a few times larger than the size of the groups of several families and the spread of the culling rituals made the desire fora single man's rule over the group dwindle. If a single man was to become the ruler over all the men the women feared they would loose their status and again they will all end up under male dominance. This is why the more prominent of the women decided the fights to the death were to determine the "ruling couple" over the entire group, and later-the traurut. The strongest man must be coupled with the strongest woman. That felt the natural order of things and the people must follow their leaders. However, as it turned out, the strongest weren't always the brightest or the most capable leaders so a council of the strongest where both the brightest of the men and the brightest of the women could participate was a far better decision then surrendering all power to a couple made by the strongest man and woman. But that realization took some time and meanwhile the "ruling couple" system was promoted as the lands were getting dryer and the practice of fights to the death was getting more and more widespread. There were two additional problems to the "ruling couple" system of organization, too. First, the strongest among the men and the women didn't always wanted to couple with each other no matter the enormous push to do so in the name of the collective. They would often want to choose other partners based on other qualities but strength and the success in dueling it brought. Second, the victorious men were very often demanding more than one partner as they had the status to make that wish. Being forced into a relationship with the strongest woman didn't feel natural for them and they wanted privileges similar to those of the men in the male dominated groups. The first was eating at the female hierarchy that was forming around the fights among the women and the second was fueling the women's fear they will end up just like in the male dominated groups. That is why there was a great need to find a solution to these problems and this is what sealed the fate of the trauruts turning them into the societies that were to propel the Tuatauans through the years and help them face the dangerous and precarious climate of the southernmost tip of the Tradarak.

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The solution to the pairing problem was to allow the domineering woman access to more then one partner simultaneously as degrading (a little bit, to a manageable degree) the status of the domineering man who would get access to many partners, too. In reality the most dominant woman was to become a sort of chief matching woman for the entire traurut-her will will determine who can breed with whom and she deserved for herself the right to breed with any man she chose, and in fact, if she so desired-with multiple ones. The strongest men also had such a privilege but the power of the dominant woman was far greater. She could decide who fathers whose children and also one more thing was under her control-who has access to the precious water in times of severe droughts. If the year is good and the water enough she won't use such a right and everyone will have enough to drink. However, if the year is bad and the water scarce, which was the case ever so often, she will literally determine who will fight to the death and even more importantly, especially for the women-whose children will have access to enough water during the drought. This made the competition for the single spot of the domineering female extremely tight and aggressive and pitched all the women against each other straining the previous well coordinated females in the egalitarian groups. But it also made possible the survival of the most resilient, toughest and strongest women in the trauruts, as well as their progeny, which helped the group, and Tuatauans as a whole in the long run. The system was brutal but fair-only the strong would rule and procreate pushing the weaker into servitude (especially among the women) and eventual death during the driest times of the year.

The adoption of that system sealed the fate of the egalitarian groups and was the birth of the true trauruts. Certain amounts of promiscuity were permitted both for the domineering males and females but the job of the most dominant female was to keep the lid of the process (in which she herself participated) so that the traurut doesn't go out of control and the women eventually developed quite the sense as to who and when was worthy to be a father among the men and which female would deserve protection for her children from droughts. It was also the answer to the pairing problem that was mentioned previously. While under the "ruling couple" there was bias towards protecting them (and therefore their children) at the expense of other couples with the adoption of the trauruts it became clearer that individual strength was more valuable than who to pair with. As most of the members of the trauruts didn't manage to survive for too long this system made sure that there will always be a turn for the spot of the ones who had access to water and the winners would take the best care they could for the surviving members of the trauruts. Thus, this system allowed for a balance between the libido of the dominant members and the need for a social cohesion under a fair system. As time progressed the dominant women gradually learned how to manipulate men sexually and how to use their powers to control who gets what water and who is to be pitched against whom in the battles for survival to keep their position of control over the entire traurut and to further undercut the position of the most dominant men. A kind of a deal appeared-the strongest men would will get the chance to breed with more women and satisfy their desires for as long as they would keep quiet about the deeds of the strongest women and ensure their power when it came to decisions about the water. If a man had a problem with that system and wanted to exert power over the entire traurut the strongest women will pack up with the weaker men and defeat him stopping the chance of him building a coalition against them from the beginning. Thus, the lessons learned from resisting the male dominated groups were well learned and this system is what stuck with the most of the history of the Tuatauans. In, fact this system made the Tuatauan the people who they were.

However, there was a price to pay for finding that power balance between the men and the women. It was the fact that the weaker became more vulnerable. Their lives were to be exchanged for the strength of the whole traurut. Among the men that meant diminished access to partners if they weren't strong enough physically and also the ever looming risk they will be sacrificed the first longer dry season came. But for the weaker women the system was even harsher-yes, they were to be tolerated and used as bargaining chips to satisfy men by the domineering females-but they were also to run the risk of loosing not only their lives but also that of their children during the droughts. And, in fact, they were basically forced into servitude by the strongest women. That servitude was primarily focused around cleaning, weaving clothes and doing other sorts of manual work for the entire traurut, but especially for the dominant females, and most of all-taking care for the younger children. The dominant females had the ability to force the dominated women into taking care of all the children and doing most of the tedious manual work necessary to run the household while they were often breeding with the males or training with them in combat. Eventually the culling among the females done by the dominant ones was so effective that all the more feminine and weaker women got sacrificed and only the harsher, tougher and more resilient ones remained and bred. The domineering women were called tuatarans while the dominated ones-suatarans. It was used to be said that the trauruts were build upon the tears of the suatarans. This disparity in status was the reason the women got used to fighting actually harsher than the man in battles for status and their physical prowess actually increased over time. The most domineering tuatarans ended up actually strong enough to challenge and defeat the weakest men and did participate in battles with other trauruts or the male dominated groups without loosing too much ground. Eventually the women of the Tuatauans managed to grow strong enough to be a formidable fighter although that process actually took millennia to unfold. But the foundations for this achievement were laid back in these times of intense conflicts among the women of the trauruts for the position of the dominant tuataran.

Meanwhile men were forced to submit to this new system or risk banishment and even death. The promiscuity of the strongest ones guaranteed their compliance. When access to several women was granted to a man that made him satisfied with his new status. The trauruts were to protect their most aggressive and strongest members as long as that aggression was forced outward. But if a man was to complain and wanted to change the system the entire traurut would turn on him by order of the tuatarans. This is what kept both the most courageous and the weakest men at bay. Plus, the system was actually beneficial for the trauruts since it allowed the strongest ones among both sexes to breed with each other. The system also managed to instill responsibility among the men forcing the survivors to recognize their duties towards the traurut thus channeling their energy into protecting it instead of trying to demolish it. Those who weren't satisfied with the situation started to get purged back in the fights among the men (which the tuatarans were happy to orchestrate) and dissent was squashed. This is how the kat (it is read like cut) formed-the male community around the traurut. The kat (literally means man in the language of the Tuatauan) protected the traurut and did most of the work for gathering food, the suatarans were taking care of the children and tuatarans (especially the strongest among them) were running the whole show. This was a structure that would last millennia and would become the dominant form of social organization among the Tuatauans.

 

[Suayakoat]

Meanwhile, in the male dominated groups a great upheaval was brooming. While the more egalitarian female-dominated groups were slowly turning into the first trauruts and were adopting ever more of the brutality and aggressiveness of the male-dominated groups they themselves were falling under the influence of one last factor that forever split the two dominant forms of social organization among the yellow-skinned people inhabiting the southernmost tip of the Tradarak-religion. It proved out to be the final "nail in the coffin" for the peace among the various groups inhabiting these lands and the reason for a brutal and harsh war among them that was to be conducted without mercy on either side.

In the beginning of their history the yellow-skinned people inhabiting the southernmost tip of the Tradarak had believes in spirits and other spiritual forces that were associated with particular sacred spaces, animals or objects. This was a primitive form of Nature worship that lasted for thousands of years while the forests were still green. However, as the climate started to change this shallow system of believe wasn't enough any more. The people wanted to know why their situation was getting worse and worse by the generation and why everything was drying up and, yet, the spirits couldn't provide an answer. This is when the people (in both kinds of groups) started looking deeper for more meaning in the other side in hopes they could understand, and even revert, the constant drying up of the lands they witnessed. In the male dominated groups a new religion gradually but unrelentlessly took form-the men, especially the strongest and most influential ones, started to believe in immortal Gods and other spirits that had carnate forms who (in their mind) were responsible for the drought and wanted to appease them and even win them over by any means necessary. They believed these spirits were the reason for all the hardships of the people and if someone manages to win them over by their side they will help them get whatever they wanted. Thus, they began building alter to these deities, painting their images and sculpturing statues of them and using these objects in sacred rituals. The strongest men would even personally identify with certain deities who would be their spiritual guardians and build cults around them. This form of religion took roots early on throughout the history of the male dominated groups it shaped their culture, traditions and ultimately gave meaning to their lies. They believed the different deities were often in quarrels with each other and that there were complex and entangled relationships among them. Thus by taking sides in the relationship one could win over or make enemies with any number of them and that will seal his fate. The entities weren't mere disembodied spirits either-they had their names, powers, looks and everything like a human (or whatever species the entity was) would have and this gave them understandable emotions, desires and goals. Furthermore, there was a strong belief in the afterlife where the worthy would meet the entities they worshipped and would win a reward or suffer a punishment according to their will. This is why the burials and the entire tradition around sending the dead to the afterlife became so important for these people. They would build elaborated tombs, conduct complex rituals to send the dead on their final journey and would like to take everything they possessed and held dear along with them. That included even loyal servants and beautiful wives which were to be murdered at the deceased funeral so they could accompany him in the afterlife. As the land got drier these traditions actually got more and more leaborate and ever more luxury items were brought to the tombs of the powerful and their deaths were being honored by the entire group for a prolonged periods of time. This is how religion started to permeate their society and was the reason for increasing the split among the groups dominated by the strongest males and the rising trauruts.

In the trauruts an opposite move was slowly but surely taking place. What started with spirit worship during the times of the egalitarian groups turned into the belief of a great existential battle as the bloodshed and then the battles to the death were taking shape. The people there needed something more than merely believing in the good for the group to excuse their suffering and the death that was coming to them. They wanted a religion where sacrifice made sense and the women, and later both the dominant men and women, gave them one. First, the image of a supreme divine spirit took hold in the consciousness of some women-a spirit which fights for the Good but is cursed to be incarnated in the material realm by an evil double, or even twin brother. This spirit was very powerful but his evil twin forced him to become matter itself and this matter was tempting people with an evil choice-be bound to the pleasures you can immediately get but at the cost of your fellow men or distance yourself from the material pleasures and end u suffering but then you would see your fellow men prosper and another immaterial purely spiritual joy would take over you. That spirit was called the Nyopan and his evil twin brother-the Gyopan. This was the beginning of a new religion that severely distanced the two systems of social organization existing at the southernmost tip of the Tradarak. According to this new belief system the entire life was a test designed to weed off the ones who were to be loyal to the Nyopan from those loyal to the Gyopan. The Nyopan gave tests and suffering but the reward was a greater spiritual joy when everyone was to get well and the Good was to spread throughout the world. Contrary the Gyopan gave earthly pleasures and wellbeing to its immediate followers but the price for that was the suffering of others and discord in the whole. The whole was exclusively the domain of the Nyopan and it made it so that its followers were strengthening it and in the process it was strengthening them back. All rewards in this new religion were spiritual in nature and only those who suffered were worthy of them. No threats, no communion with spirits, no rituals were able to sway the Nyopan in your favor-just proper thoughts and actions while it was believed that all the rituals, gifts and especially sacrifices were products of the deeds of the Gyopan only and they were being used by him to corrupt and lead astray the human spirit into an ever growing pool of suffering without an end. The goal of the Nyopan was simple-to inspire and protect all creation and keep it growing despite the best attempts by its brother to end all existence. The Nyopan used suffering and tests to support and flourish life, while the Gyopan gave material pleasures and short term gains to its followers but its ultimate goal was to rob them all of their lives eventually and spread destruction to all of his brother's works. Later on people moved away from the idea that the Nyopan and the Gyopan were brothers and started perceiving them only as immaterial, all permeating and eternal entities locked into constant struggle amongst each other. The righteous side was that of the Nyopan but one must first suffer in this material life in order to deserve to be with him in the afterlife. On the other hand the Gyopan gave pleasures and status to its followers but robbed them from this eternal existence. Later on, when the idea of immaterial entities locked in combat spread, it was postulated that neither the Nyopan, nor the Gyopan had any physical form and there could never be images or statues of them, however, the Gyopan instilled idolatry into the minds of its followers to lead them astray from this truth and keep them occupied with physical attraction towards objects instead of devotion to the truth and ideals. This is how the early trauruts framed the practices of the male-dominated groups and instilled hatered and vengefulness towards them among the trimmed, suffered and religiously obsessed populations of these groups. And that was a prelude for a war...

 

[Durward]

Wow, so far this would make an interesting book to read, just what you have posted so far.

 

[Suayakoat]

I'm just beginning @Durward This is only the birth of the Tuatauans. There is much more till the end. And I have other lives' experiences to share, too. So, keep checking out the thread from time to time. I will try to post twice every day from now on but I can't guarantee anything. I'm quite a busy person actually. I can't be on the Internet all day long. I have a life, too.

P.S. The one thing I would love people to take from this story is to actually monitor the energies the Tuatauans have been putting in the Universe. If you have an "eye" for it you must be able to see these people, I mean us the Tuatauans, have been using all sorts of magic for a long long long time ago ever since our origin. The thing is that when you are pushed to the edge, and over it, you must either fall to your death or learn to fly. Well, we learned to fly. This is why you will see throughout the story use of blood magic (I mean the use of one's willing sacrifice to influence the karma of others, using murder for magical purposes, rituals of fights to the death and other practices that could be directly linked to sorcery where one puts his (or her) own spirit on the line to influence events or use taking of others life for rituals), sex magic (a kaleidoscope of rituals using the male/female polarities to put vibrations in the world that could/should potentially influence fate), other different spiritual practices (especially soft body activating ones) as well as serious discussions on religion and the consequences of following different systems of believes. For those with eyes to see it, this story should be enriching and dare I even say-nourishing one. Or, at least, I think so?