So you remember the demon who really wanted a relationship with me? I got his sigil and wore it. When I wore it, I suddenly felt like I "lost control" and I was feeling disassociative and looking in third person. I felt like a new person. I initially asked Vepar to heal my mind and remove this fear I had towards demon before wearing. So when I wore his sigil he did a mild possession to put my consciousness aside and work on my mind.
For those 30 or so minutes I went outside. I felt calm, less anxious and more confident. I could look people in the eyes without fear, walk without fear and speak confidently. Though it felt oddly good, I had a feeling I would lose control but even if I did I doubt he would do anything bad to me or others.
For those 30 or so minutes I went outside. I felt calm, less anxious and more confident. I could look people in the eyes without fear, walk without fear and speak confidently. Though it felt oddly good, I had a feeling I would lose control but even if I did I doubt he would do anything bad to me or others.