Journal Journal of Night and Day, Son and Moon

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Word. Appreciate all the words. Thank you
Okay, dust my ass off and back into Christophers book Magic, Kaballah, and the Great Work of Self-Transformation, back at Neophyte, working as steadily but quickly as I can.
On the side, will involve myself more into Candle and Psalms magic, and speaking in Hebrew the 216 lettered name of God with each ritual. And on that note, when I have money, I will buy a drop cloth and spray paint and create a Shem circle with the spiraling 216 lettered name, that unlocks all gates.
As well as Psalms and Proverbs meditations daily, and as much work in GoM and other Angelic/Celestial magic works.

 

[Jarhyn]

Accidental post oops

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Stared at my altar(wood chest of silverware), and thought of One glass of water, four teacups filled with water, and four white tealights rotated 90 degrees within the teacups, frankincense in the center, the water cups arranged in a form of a pentagram, yet without the glass water cup, an octagram.
What angelic magic can be wielded with that arrangement...

 

[Jarhyn]

Stared at my altar(wood chest of silverware), and thought of One glass of water, four teacups filled with water, and four white tealights rotated 90 degrees within the teacups, frankincense in the center, the water cups arranged in a form of a pentagram, yet without the glass water cup, an octagram.
What angelic magic can be wielded with that arrangement...

¯\(ツ)/¯ I don't do magic that way very often, so I wouldn't be able to tell you.

I would say, any magic which you please.

If you need set and ritual for your work, I would say the most important ritual is to embed simple logic and philosophy problems in your mind, with focus on "for a year, in all fortune", as 8 is the number of "the wheel"(?). Specifically direct these not at the angels but direct this at the oubliette, and power it "from the right(angelic), flowing towards the left(demonic)".

I would find four, and repeat them some useful number of times until the shape of these conundrums are burned into your mind. Pick one, and focus on it in particular.

If it was me, I would repeat the ritual at each of the quarters and cross quarters for a year.

Each time an answer comes of a problem (an existential shift, usually), you will notice yourself tip more into balance, and frankly, notice those trying to tip you off balance only pushing themselves back against your foundation.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Celtic Cross spread - What is my future in magick:
Significator: Knight of Cups (has been popping up in many readings lately, had three kings and two knights in one)
Covers: Queen of Cups
Crosses: Four of Wands
Crowns: Five of Cups
Beneath: Seven of Pentacles
Behind: King of Cups
Before: Three of Wands
Querent: XII The Hanged Man
Environment: Seven of Cups
Hopes and Fears: Nine of Cups
Final Outcome: Seven of Swords

Top of Deck: Two of Wands
Bottom of Deck: XIII Death

The Courts and The Hanged Man are all Water based, and contributing are the Five of Cups, Seven of Cups and Nine of Cups.
Wands, Four and Three.
Pentacles, Seven of Pentacles.
Swords, Seven of Swords.
The gematria reduction of the Cups is 21, or 3 (multiplication)
The rest all are or add up to 7 (forget the keyword on 7 and 8).

A presentation of the Grail, with the Father and Mother covering and behind.
Chesed in Atziluth, no seeming celebratory victory, or that crosses me.
Crowning me is realizing I have to preserve less than half of my Cups for who knows how long or what may occur.
Binah of Atziluth, waiting for return of a message is before me, silence.

Reversal is the theme of the day for the Querent, in a world of past present and future illusions and delusions.
Hopes for the hoarding of love, but thieves are at play in the end.

Dominion oversees.

 

[Jarhyn]

I dunno. Consider that if you create the environment of illusions, you may get the chance to be the thief of power-over.

To me the hanged man as "you" speaks as he who has learned from wisdom (and failure). This may be what you see in the knight of the grail.

Draw your two of wands, power joined, and let death come later, after all other things.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Nice.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Was burning with a nagging in my head to locate the judgements upon Edom and Moab in Isaiah.
Am concerned that there is actually a Black Magic manipulation of the Shemhamphoresh. It appears truly nothing is sacred to some.
Even if I disagree personally with a religion, I still have anthropological respect for the religion. I just won't touch it with a ten foot pole.
Isaiah 15&16 as a start, read up to 44.
Still need to do some Psalms reading (on the basis of reading all Psalms in a given month, you must therefore recite in a specific sequence, five psalms a day; which also pairs well with a proverb for that given Psalms day.), todays Psalms are Psalms 11-15, and the Proverb Proverbs 3.
Personal reflection will be integrated with these Psalms and Proverb as to recent unfavorable events.

 

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Already in simply glimpsing Proverbs 3, I see this:
"For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee.
Let not mercy and truth forsake thee: bind them about thy neck; write them upon the table of thine heart:"
I believe this refers to the Tefellim, unless Im off in the grasping for the name. There are two possibilities here, the Ten Commandments rolled up into a scroll and posted at a door, or, the law written on a paper string or sash that holds the prayers to God. Ive seen a few Rabbis on a subway do this once.

And, ouch: Psalm 15. I have to let it all go and look Satan in the eye and bless him in the name of the Father and Son and Holy Spirit. That is the way out of anger and other nasty emotions.

 

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I looked over at my Earth Pentacle (a teacup saucer but pretty one at that), and thought of memorial stones made out of the stones laid in a ring. I didn't know if I ever meant to collect the exact number, but : 12 rocks lay upon my pentacle. To make a memorial (Book of Joshua or Nehamiah?) with them, I guess that is what I will do.
Speaking of stones, need a Rose Quartz for a love ritual, even to attract love of self, and a few other. I might get several stones known for repelling negative energy or evil, and wrap them in a gris gris bag or poppet, and place in each corner as a ward. Perhaps make and charge, rather than pencil drawn figures of Solomonic Pentacles, and create a temple within my room. Get holy water and complete wash the floor, walls and ceiling with holy water. Then perhaps ask a Greek Orthodox priest to come in and deliver a blessing upon me and my home after a confession.

 

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Time limit expired to edit the message, this is why you see a lot of odd posts that seem to mimic a preceding one. My thoughts are on a manic bipolar level, so more editing time would be nice, especially with combined ADD and Schizo Afffective thought impositions.

I looked over at my Earth Pentacle (a teacup saucer but pretty one at that), and thought of memorial stones made out of the stones laid in a ring. I didn't know if I ever meant to collect the exact number, but : 12 rocks lay upon my pentacle. To make a memorial (Book of Joshua or Nehamiah?) with them, I guess that is what I will do.
Speaking of stones, need a Rose Quartz for a love ritual, even to attract love of self, and a few other. I might get several stones known for repelling negative energy or evil, and wrap them in a gris gris bag or poppet, and place in each corner as a ward.
Also, on stones, need to collect certain ones to create a Geomancy Kit.
Have created an Earth Watchtower table, need to redraw to straighten sizes out so the Equal Armed Cross colors are radiant enough, as well as colored letters and corresponding color squares.
Yeah, going to a thought on using an octogram of water cups and candles, is that water, blood and free are gateways to spirit. There may be other methods, but these ar common especially in LHP. Then there is the consideration of Hod, Netzach, form and force. Hence the Octagram, calling down the form or force. At least in my magically uneducated mind. Perhaps it dont work like that. Perhaps read a book on Planetary Magic in relation to Qabalah. Then figure out how that star stuff affects each of us personally daily. Then how force or form imposed upon us hinders or helps us. Im tired and rambling here.
Perhaps make and charge, rather than pencil drawn figures of Solomonic Pentacles, and create a temple within my room. Get holy water and complete wash the floor, walls and ceiling with holy water. Then perhaps ask a Greek Orthodox priest to come in and deliver a blessing upon me and my home after a confession.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

As far as BALG goes, I know my actions, words and truth. I also slightly see what others have been playing with in relation to making me out to be Public Enemy #1.
So, screw that place, and that time on that place.
This place has more educated, less delusional people on it that I can greatly learn from.

So, back to the RHP grade system, this Neophyte should learn to shut his mouth a bit. Silence exercises.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Okay, back to Page one of the book, with careful reading and introspection, and writing down questions as I go along.
This and to finish the Earth Watchtower tablet, and start work on constructing the Air Watchtower tablet, and Tablet of Union.
Paint Outer Order Wand of Double Power, and Air Dagger (plastic handle but should be able to make it happen and seal with AquaNet or something. Need to put the Hebrew on the handle, along with Motto. Should do same in complementary colors on OOWoDP.
Read up in The Mystical Kaballah, Kaballah Unveiled, Sepher Sepheroth, etc, on The Outer Order grade sephiroth, and what force and form actually do, how they start from Atziluth and manifest in Assiah, in which Sephira can we safely work with the energies and redirect it toward an aim of our own, how astrology transits, sun sign and moon placement affect both the force or form and the intended aim using the force or form.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Sunday, April 3 2022 (7+6=13=4, Order, sight). Ruling Planet: Sol. Color: Yellow
Sleep/Dreams - None or scattered sleep, thus no dream recall.
Mood: Stress High, Depression High, Anxiety High = Low
Mental Notes - Need to watch my mouth, rather than a simple disagreement, people try to make a literal legal case about it, especially when I was never really in the wrong, simply adding my experience - horrors I know. And honestly answering someones question then popped into boiling oil over it, How adult of you all.
Physical Notes: Usual pains that can be at least reduced via Body Awareness, and Relaxation rituals; as well as yoga or qi gong work with stretching and esoteric poses.
Moon/Transits: Not the slightest idea atm.

Plans for the day:
Get mundane material together to handle an ongoing issue that I have rights and victory to and through.
Make plans with friend helping me handle it all to meet next week instead due to a third mental health day after BALG and suicidal ideation.
Invoke Shem angel known to put issues like these in their place, then a period of praise to God, the Holy One.
Introspection, Black-White mirror, Moral Inventory and prayers regarding them to Michael, archangel of the day.

I suppose its safe to say after all this drama that I am now RHP.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

On a Tarot reading on myself and an enemy, Celtic Cross spread.
Significator - VI The Lovers - Superconsciousness, Gemini
Covers Five of Cups - Mars in Scorpio
Crosses - I The Magician - Self Consciousness, Mercury
Crowns - Page of Wands (Earth of Fire, astrological association not known atm)
Beneath - Four of Wands - Jupiter in Aries
Behind - Queen of Swords (Water or Air)
Before - King of Swords (Fire of Fire)
Querent - XVIII The Moon - Organization, Pisces
Environment - III Empress - Creative imagination/power, Venus
Hopes and Fears - Ten of Cups - Mars in Pisces
Final Outcome - II The High Priestess - Subconsciousness, duplication, repetition, Luna

Top of Deck VIII Strength
Bottom of Deck Queen of Pentacles

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Ritual to invoke Vehooel, Shem Angel #1
Organize space as best as possible, walk that geometric perimeter, sprinkling salt water and waving incense smoke, exorcising and purifying perimeter.
Perform LBRP standing East of altar, and move clockwise to other quarters and returning to East.
Setup altar in center contains frankincense, water, four cups, and one tealight, as well as seal and incantation to call the angel.
Light frankincense and white tealight candle, fill water cups from water container.
Let self fall into a minor trance, and recite his name three times, then request him by title to come. Recite Psalm verse and thank him for his attributes.
Intention: Invoke him into my consciousness and subtle bodies fields, making changes to them, to the glory of the Holy One, as need be, and letting that spillover into the world around me physically.
Thank Shem angel in advance.
Let praises be done, let reflection on the law be done, etc.
As tealight is about to burnout, thank and dismiss the Shem Angel and ask to be ready if called on again.
Perform LBRP, extinguish candle and incense, empty water cups and water container into sink; ground by eating or the like.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

No work was done last night due to some errands that had to be run.
Reading 300 Angels of Power or the like, about using Zodiac angels (360 total).
Want to memorize the ritual format so all I need to do is scan the current sigil, invoke the angel, and thank the names. This way all I need to do is locate the sigil, and within minutes the ritual complete.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Monday, April 4 2022 (13=5, Mediation). Ruling Planet: Luna. Color for Day: Silver.
Sleep/Dreams: Scattered sleep as usual, slept most of day yesterday out of depression.
Mood: Stress High, Depression High, Anxiety High = Low
Mental Notes - Need to watch my mouth, rather than a simple disagreement, people try to make a literal legal case about it, especially when I was never really in the wrong, simply adding my experience - horrors I know. And honestly answering someones question then popped into boiling oil over it, How adult of you all.
Physical Notes: Usual pains that can be at least reduced via Body Awareness, and Relaxation rituals; as well as yoga or qi gong work with stretching and esoteric poses.
Moon/Transits: Not the slightest idea atm.



Rituals:
QC/LRP Spirit invoking/QC done. Visualization was going better until distracted at calling of archangels. Completed regardless.
Done with Sign of Enterer and Sign of Silence.
Psalms work - Sang Psalm 104, Read Psalm 100
Will do Middle Pillar a bit later after Body Awareness and Relaxation Ritual.
Tarot Contemplation Ritual: Gabriel, blow your horn ... XX Judgement - Shin, Elemental Fire, Malkuth to Hod, Revelation, Announcement, Renewal.

Adorations: Morning Lord of The Universe and Liber Resh Vel Helios done with grade signs and sin of silence.


Plans for the day:
Get mundane material together to handle an ongoing issue that I have rights and victory to and through.
Make plans with friend helping me handle it all to meet next week instead due to a third mental health day after BALG and suicidal ideation.
Invoke Shem angel known to put issues like these in their place, then a period of praise to God, the Holy One.
Introspection, Black-White mirror, Moral Inventory and prayers regarding them to Gabriel, archangel of the day.
Okay, back to Page one of the book, with careful reading and introspection, and writing down questions as I go along.
This and to finish the Earth Watchtower tablet, and start work on constructing the Air Watchtower tablet, and Tablet of Union.
Paint Outer Order Wand of Double Power, and Air Dagger (plastic handle but should be able to make it happen and seal with AquaNet or something. Need to put the Hebrew on the handle, along with Motto. Should do same in complementary colors on OOWoDP.
Read up in The Mystical Kaballah, Kaballah Unveiled, Sepher Sepheroth, etc, on The Outer Order grade sephiroth, and what force and form actually do, how they start from Atziluth and manifest in Assiah, in which Sephira can we safely work with the energies and redirect it toward an aim of our own, how astrology transits, sun sign and moon placement affect both the force or form and the intended aim using the force or form.
Reading 300 Angels of Power or the like, about using Zodiac angels (360 total).
Want to memorize the ritual format so all I need to do is scan the current sigil, invoke the angel, and thank the names. This way all I need to do is locate the sigil, and within minutes the ritual complete.
Contemplate Shem Angel of birthday, todays Shem angel, and the Shem angel in median between the two based on the zodiac belt, then invoke all three clockwise.

Ritual to invoke Vehooel, Shem Angel #1
Organize space as best as possible, walk that geometric perimeter, sprinkling salt water and waving incense smoke, exorcising and purifying perimeter.
Perform LBRP standing East of altar, and move clockwise to other quarters and returning to East.
Setup altar in center contains frankincense, water, four cups, and one tealight, as well as seal and incantation to call the angel.
Light frankincense and white tealight candle, fill water cups from water container.
Let self fall into a minor trance, and recite his name three times, then request him by title to come. Recite Psalm verse and thank him for his attributes.
Intention: Invoke him into my consciousness and subtle bodies fields, making changes to them, to the glory of the Holy One, as need be, and letting that spillover into the world around me physically.
Thank Shem angel in advance.
Let praises be done, let reflection on the law be done, etc.
As tealight is about to burnout, thank and dismiss the Shem Angel and ask to be ready if called on again.
Perform LBRP, extinguish candle and incense, empty water cups and water container into sink; ground by eating or the like.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Started to get mundane materials, Too early to call my friend, but should also call my County Mental Health contacts and explain the weekend, and contact my lawyer for getting my Drivers License restored. Need to contact a few other partied for other matters, including past employers.
Would like to do a self background check, which leans me back toward taking a Criminal Justice Bachelors instead of Business Management as I hate most corporate businesses, working for the state would allow me some access to my history, and might be able to find out how to get a full background check done for employment in a different industry,
So, after locating rest of my financial and health info, organizing it, will call my friends and the others.
One task nearly complete.
Looks like readings and angelic invocations will be the matters of the day aside from the Enochian tablets done in colored pen, watercolor pencil and black ink, squares and room for top symbol on Watchtower tablets, as paint is an issue with temple supplies.
Still trying to get on top of my bills, so that I can start saving money, start an IRA, and then tackle temple supplies and books and such.
On elemental weapons, would love to use the services of the Ciceros in purchasing elemental weapons painted by them and then do consecration of them myself as I did back in 2014.
But, make do with what nature and my Dollar Tree spiritual excursion for temple supplies yielding my current dagger, and the other elemental weapons done in feral sorcery form, if they work they work. If I need to draw on a doily over the saucer, then so be it. Same with taping a colored paper over the water vessel. The water cups are old chinatown teacups in various limited colors, and use these with candle magick and as a gateway to spirit. Candles are dressed and assigned an altar station depending on the work being done.
Anyway, with no paint, that stalls a few matters, feral sorcery and watercolor pencils appear to be the winner in the Enochian materials area.
So reading, angelic invocations, and arts and crafts via colored paper, sketch paper, and watercolor pencils.
Basic, ghetto, feral, what have you, if it is capable of working then it works.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

As for temple supplies, it's really more of training materials for launching into being a Ritual Magician for Hire. However, I need to know my magic, my area of expertise, and the basics of getting started. With the materials, its going to be mainly witchcraft, hoodoo, or magick oils, incenses, etc. These are technically then business supplies, and could be covered under a loan maybe.
Ditto with vacant properties Ive seen and wondered about as a Pagan Temple or Magical Working Space or whatnot, a dream Ive had for many years.
Also, furniture (altar, bookcase, shelves.cabinet/hutch) would be nice. If new housing with my own space to practice, then a futon as well might as well be added to the list.
Ive got a lot of silver, gold, and other colored birthday candles or small tapers but no holders except for tealight tins holding tees for the birthday candles. Have nearly 100 white tealights. Those might be the better candles to use, and should be replenishing candles and incense every month.