[Help] Possessed

[vawn]

Hey, im not sure what im allowed to say about my story, but basically im possessed by a bunch of entities and they make life horrible.

Things that the spirit does to me:

• force me to masturbate and watch porn
• make me lose my peripheral vision and sight so im super close to hitting things or people around me (close to hitting my head or balls or back)
• shame, humiliate,condemn me for my existence and treat me like scum in thoughts and dreams
• enforce the idea that i shouldve been an abortion and that i will be going to hell for eternity (im assuming its true, but id still want to live a decent life)
• prevent me from growing and developing myself (personality, character traits, hobbies, learning, inner self and emotions)
• tense my body in places and produce pain for me to feel whenever they want
• bite my teeth repeatedly and create headaches or pains in my body including genitals, anus
• prevent me from establishing and growing good relationships with people and family. (i want a faithful relationship with a woman one day)
• force me to speak ill towards people and say words that i dont mean to say
• use my inner thoughts to speak things to people that i dont want to say or mean to say
• they control everything but sometimes i do have my 'free' will to make decisions.
• completely erase my memory and put memories that never happened and lose focus on what i was doing
• ill study javascript sometimes and they force my attention somewhere else or create random visions while im trying to learn or do something.
• i understand that my past makes me a shitty person, but i want the ability to change and not do certain things anymore
• i cant trust people anymore after being betrayed by certain groups
• i want to come in peace to everyone and treat people with respect and decency but they have nerfed me as a human and i feel super dumb (can act ignorantly and i dont want to do that if i end up being around people who are powerful)
• life sucks so much that i get blackout drunk by myself so i dont have to remember anything and so they leave me alone for that period of time that im awake.

i will admit that life could be worse, i have my body and it does function properly except for one of my legs, i have some money, food and shelter, but i hate that i cant work on myself.
i do believe that my past actions and decisions caused me to be put in this situation, but i do feel that its 95/5 (50/50). Life for most people including myself is rigged in certain moments that can really effect ones future and sometimes its not. But even when its not rigged its not really a fair chance.

can someone please help me get rid of my curse and have a new beginning in my life here or at least nudge me in the right direction?

 

[TheLastFlame]

Hey, im not sure what im allowed to say about my story, but basically im possessed by a bunch of entities and they make life horrible.

Things that the spirit does to me:

• force me to masturbate and watch porn
• make me lose my peripheral vision and sight so im super close to hitting things or people around me (close to hitting my head or balls or back)
• shame, humiliate,condemn me for my existence and treat me like scum in thoughts and dreams
• enforce the idea that i shouldve been an abortion and that i will be going to hell for eternity (im assuming its true, but id still want to live a decent life)
• prevent me from growing and developing myself (personality, character traits, hobbies, learning, inner self and emotions)
• tense my body in places and produce pain for me to feel whenever they want
• bite my teeth repeatedly and create headaches or pains in my body including genitals, anus
• prevent me from establishing and growing good relationships with people and family. (i want a faithful relationship with a woman one day)
• force me to speak ill towards people and say words that i dont mean to say
• use my inner thoughts to speak things to people that i dont want to say or mean to say
• they control everything but sometimes i do have my 'free' will to make decisions.
• completely erase my memory and put memories that never happened and lose focus on what i was doing
• ill study javascript sometimes and they force my attention somewhere else or create random visions while im trying to learn or do something.
• i understand that my past makes me a shitty person, but i want the ability to change and not do certain things anymore
• i cant trust people anymore after being betrayed by certain groups
• i want to come in peace to everyone and treat people with respect and decency but they have nerfed me as a human and i feel super dumb (can act ignorantly and i dont want to do that if i end up being around people who are powerful)
• life sucks so much that i get blackout drunk by myself so i dont have to remember anything and so they leave me alone for that period of time that im awake.

i will admit that life could be worse, i have my body and it does function properly except for one of my legs, i have some money, food and shelter, but i hate that i cant work on myself.
i do believe that my past actions and decisions caused me to be put in this situation, but i do feel that its 95/5 (50/50). Life for most people including myself is rigged in certain moments that can really effect ones future and sometimes its not. But even when its not rigged its not really a fair chance.

can someone please help me get rid of my curse and have a new beginning in my life here or at least nudge me in the right direction?

Jerry alan johnson has books on exorcism their good and detailed.

 

[I_am_suprised]

To be completely honest it sounds you might need therapy, so that would be my first suggestion.

Some things that might help

Self care- negative entities can cause bad health, but bad health can also make you vulnerable to negative entities. Therefore self care is your first line of defense.

• Clean the room you spend the most time in
• Make sure your body and clothes are clean
• Daily (or twice daily) banishing in the same room. You can try the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram, the basic call from Damon brand's Archangels of Magick, or something specific to your practice.
• Go outside and get sunlight
• Drink plenty of water
• Go for a walk or some other light exercise
• Eat a balanced diet
• consider a multivitamin
• Moderate drinking and drug use.

In the circumstance you're in a lot of these might be really hard to accomplish, so just do what you can. Any little thing you do will help fortify you and thus make doing more easier.

Some books that might help and I'd recommend just choosing one and applying it. Practice is always more valuable than theory. Once you're seeing results you can pick another if you want. Pick one from my list or pick one from other people's suggestions.

Feeding Your Demons by Tsultrim Allione

Magical Protection by Damon Brand

The Little Book of Big Change by Amy Johnson

Vampire's Way to Self-defense by John Kreiter

 

[Lemongrass00]

force me to masturbate and watch porn

Bro people will say anything but take responsibility

 

[vawn]

Bro people will say anything but take responsib

Bro people will say anything but take responsibility

it does sound funny but i know the difference between choosing to do it or not and the difference between being forced to do it against your will.

 

[Lemongrass00]

it does sound funny but i know the difference between choosing to do it or not and the difference between being forced to do it against your will.

All that is required is no Magick, you need to practice what is called presence.

to help conceptualize this, pretend your mind is a jungle and you are an observer, watching whatever unconscious thought or impulse emerges,

say for example you feel the need to speak ill of someone, focus on that feeling and put your entire consciousness on feeling that feeling, like a spotlight.

in my opinion it is probably not an entity, but the dysfunction of your mind has grown so much that every unconscious urge rules over you and you mistake yourself for it.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Check out the Testament of Solomon, and his handling of Asmodeus.

 

[Roma]

possessed by a bunch of entities

Can you visualize an "octopus" sitting your head managing your brain-thoughts?

Push light from your heart into the octopus. What happens?

 

[Yazata]

i know the difference between choosing to do it or not and the difference between being forced to do it against your will

Well, then use this to strengthen your will and not watch porn and touch yourself. Might help you with building up energy and a sense of accomplishment ) growth

 

[8Lou1]

lol i love your octopussies, but lets be serious here. i know the difference between several forms of possession . sometimes it might be a part of you that is taking over, sometimes its a subconscious drive, sometimes people play tricks for to long and then its a sort of egregore and of course the well known ones where you totally change.

not going to talk about the voluntary ones cause then people online suddenly think you might be able to use THEIR hands and i dont think its illegal, but even hackers seem to have gained some decency. so lets talk about sex and not ftx. thank you

so thats a bit of afterflow of a hatewave, but not possession.

so how heavy do you experience? you know you are still there or are you totally gone and reawake afterwards. been there aint funny., but solvable.
you know if you really want to talk about it and you say you dont have all the power in your body it might be an idea to pm. i dont mind sextalk so if you go wrong, there is totally no problem or something to feel ashamed about.

 

[Vandheer]

lol i love your octopussies, but lets be serious here. i know the difference between several forms of possession . sometimes it might be a part of you that is taking over, sometimes its a subconscious drive, sometimes people play tricks for to long and then its a sort of egregore and of course the well known ones where you totally change.

not going to talk about the voluntary ones cause then people online suddenly think you might be able to use THEIR hands and i dont think its illegal, but even hackers seem to have gained some decency. so lets talk about sex and not ftx. thank you

so thats a bit of afterflow of a hatewave, but not possession.

so how heavy do you experience? you know you are still there or are you totally gone and reawake afterwards. been there aint funny., but solvable.
you know if you really want to talk about it and you say you dont have all the power in your body it might be an idea to pm. i dont mind sextalk so if you go wrong, there is totally no problem or something to feel ashamed about.

Is there a single person that you didn't try to hit on?

 

[8Lou1]

you know the strangest thing? i tried to stop being me as im married and walked in old clothes etc. went covering with headscarf and big loose islamic clothes and i still would get marriage offers and get flirted with while my husband is standing next to me. so let me be clear im not hitting on anyone im just too sexy for this world.

stupid shit i even get warlocks in my dreams if i would marry them or some djinn tried it too. the worst time was when they thought i was possessed by aicha kandicha a morroccan lustdemon, they fucking exorcised myself.

well at least you found my anger spot vandheer cause really, what is in Your eyes that makes you assume that that's what im doing.

for the rest yeah its funny, i just cant take a funny hit very well ok. at least i found my work in progress....( was that sarcastic, i havent done sarcastic in years). we are looping btw. i remember writing this before. so i didnt learn shit and still im sexy, with proof cause vandheer sees it.

 

[Roma]

Is there a single person that you didn't try to hit on?

As you might deduce, possession mostly occurs because the human in some way invites it.

Negative attitudes/thoughts can be a problem sometimes even if long forgotten

 

[frsfmcs]

You just don't have control over yourself. Do step 1 from franz bardon IIH. Technically you can say you are possessed by parts of yourself.

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

I honestly think therapy might be a great idea. Catholic priests ordinarily send a person to a therapist first.

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

Hey, im not sure what im allowed to say about my story, but basically im possessed by a bunch of entities and they make life horrible.

Things that the spirit does to me:

• force me to masturbate and watch porn
• make me lose my peripheral vision and sight so im super close to hitting things or people around me (close to hitting my head or balls or back)
• shame, humiliate,condemn me for my existence and treat me like scum in thoughts and dreams
• enforce the idea that i shouldve been an abortion and that i will be going to hell for eternity (im assuming its true, but id still want to live a decent life)
• prevent me from growing and developing myself (personality, character traits, hobbies, learning, inner self and emotions)
• tense my body in places and produce pain for me to feel whenever they want
• bite my teeth repeatedly and create headaches or pains in my body including genitals, anus
• prevent me from establishing and growing good relationships with people and family. (i want a faithful relationship with a woman one day)
• force me to speak ill towards people and say words that i dont mean to say
• use my inner thoughts to speak things to people that i dont want to say or mean to say
• they control everything but sometimes i do have my 'free' will to make decisions.
• completely erase my memory and put memories that never happened and lose focus on what i was doing
• ill study javascript sometimes and they force my attention somewhere else or create random visions while im trying to learn or do something.
• i understand that my past makes me a shitty person, but i want the ability to change and not do certain things anymore
• i cant trust people anymore after being betrayed by certain groups
• i want to come in peace to everyone and treat people with respect and decency but they have nerfed me as a human and i feel super dumb (can act ignorantly and i dont want to do that if i end up being around people who are powerful)
• life sucks so much that i get blackout drunk by myself so i dont have to remember anything and so they leave me alone for that period of time that im awake.

i will admit that life could be worse, i have my body and it does function properly except for one of my legs, i have some money, food and shelter, but i hate that i cant work on myself.
i do believe that my past actions and decisions caused me to be put in this situation, but i do feel that its 95/5 (50/50). Life for most people including myself is rigged in certain moments that can really effect ones future and sometimes its not. But even when its not rigged its not really a fair chance.

can someone please help me get rid of my curse and have a new beginning in my life here or at least nudge me in the right direction?

Not trying to be mean, but six months outpatient group therapy amongst LGBTQ folks may help you. At least all sexuality issues can be worked out in terms of thought to action.
A Celebrate Recovery sexual addiction group might be good for you.
Lastly, invite Mormons over to bless you and talk about the Book of Mormon.

When demons see you doing this they will take a step back to plan to counterattack.

Read the Testament of Solomon.
Read the Book of Tobit.

Those will make Asmodeus step off.

 

[vawn]

I kinda wish I could delete this post

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Do you want hope or not? I'm not saying this to be arrogant or mean or angry, but I am trying to suggest help for you to make the demons step off.

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

Reading your original post, I'm less convinced of a possession than a witches spell or a curse. Baneful magic.

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

By taking the psyche out of it, by binding the body, what's left is soul and spirit.
That is what to protect. Or consider sovereign grace of God.

 

[WisdomAddict]

Faith faith faith
I was in the same situation caused by enitites from an very old curse made by my aunt 20 years ago
Entities tried to to kill me but the key to overcome them is free will and doing exact opposite of what they are asking and demanding and forcing you to you!!
Don't be fool about deals they may offer you
They are not allowed to come on the earth and they are underworld creatures who hate human beings and their plane
I personally had help of god of course and help of my witch freinds (who done hex disspell) my case was an hex curse with voodoo doll and maybe one or two demons with number of shadow entities in the form of 4 leg creatures, and they even told me who send them and before that my friend has done hex disspelling and told me to do a ritual called return to sender (ihad done the ritual mentally and without an altar or stones or any item and I had no clue that I had such an ablites back then)
So the demons and entities were gone to possess the sender.and with a lot of pain (the were attached to an spicific organs
Like back of my head,my genitals,my back bones,my knee,my heart) and help of Jesus Christ himself they got out of my body(true story of a miracle )

I had help of family members to get rid of them and I had harsh few months and I started with my free will by overcoming the porn and masturbation problem each time they told me Todo that I was going doing working out with my dumbles all the time and that make them very upset that I don't give my life force to them

Strength your relationship to god and and believe that he hill help you
Listen to mass and choral music
Shower regulary
Clean your room
Trash any item that reminds you of them(I trash almost 3/4 of my belongings)
Live in the moment practice became more aligned with your true self and meditate regulary
Read bible and you can listen to preaches
You can read father amorth books for more info

My witch Freind tip :
Dont scare of them
Scare the shit of the damn poor ghost


I will pray for you
Take care

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

Another tip and proof of possession :
How I found out it was entities ? Not my psyche and my mind?
My eye color were changed 20 years ago from brown to black (fiery like the same person who cursed me)
And after exorsism my eyes become like me again one by one, in a length of few weeks maybe....

Post automatically merged: Jun 16, 2023

Get rid of the dirt in the house
Get rid of the dirty clothes or carpet any thing dirty
They are attracted to anything gross

Clean your room , house , living place on regual basis

Get Rid of precense of metalish items like piercings
Rings even decorative items like an statue or anything acting as medium that may come into (I personally don't believe in such phenomenon)

 

[DiLoco_DelEted]

Read five psalms a day, starting at today's date would be psalms 76-80 (my math could be off).
Example:
6-1-2023 Ps 1-5
6-2-2023 Ps 6-10
....
6-29-2023 Ps 140-145
6-30-2023 Ps 146-150

Or take a 22 day meditation task focused on one letter a day from Psalms 119.

By doing either, you will come closer to God who will dispel the demons.

Meditate on the psalms you read.

 

[vawn]

My relationship with Jesus is completely destroyed and his church desires to kill me. The members of the church and of Satans church truly hate me and they use their spirit to speak curses and lies toward me and to do the things mentioned. One member showed me a vision right in front of me of the lake of fire or being tortured sexually on three occasions. I decided to leave (they basically kicked me out) and go my own way and make use of the time I have left. I would just prefer if I could leave my past and regrets behind which they force upon me to remember everyday.